slept again today. four hours.

i wanted to clear some over dued homework but yeah, the freaking migraine turned itself on again so i went to sleep.

anyhow economics is depressing. i used to quite like it a bit. but anyhow ever since that ZERO/25 essay im quite *@*#&!#&@!&*!^@& damn it. cannot be my entire two sided essay was without a SINGLE valid point right. rawr. bloody demoralising can.

-shrugs.
good thing a lvl chinese results are out friday and HOORAY NO HISTORY TEST. hahaha just some take home essayS which might be even worse cos i dont think i have the time to slog it out weekends.

oh oh! apparently my personality type is damn ulu la. i got some classroom F4-smthg, while most people got LTs or even the hall. hahaha does that mean im weird or im special? LOLOL.

randomness.

still sore from PE.
sore in places i never knew i even had muscles in. choy is a slavedriver. circuit training is prolonged torture. limping around school like a fool stinks. i didnt want to go to school today.

long day, despite the short schedule today.
came home and slept from 3 plus till nearly 8 but still drained out i dunno why.

maths test tmw and i dont think i can do as thorough a revision as i should in a hour.
i dont want to do badly for maths. theres this whole thing where most people expect you to do well and not doing it.. okay i hate the undertone of how some people can ask how you did. and it seems like people who are your friends your classmates are extremely happy, too happy, to triumph you.

i hate being called a mugger when im not. my grades arent exactly good.
so are you trying to say im stupid?

btw. mj teachers are spastic.
THANKS for throwing 4 tests, ok maybe 3, this week.
econs maths econs hist is =(((((((

class is weird nowadays. its kinda split into 3 sections and tho im fine with them and i like them, some how, some times it feels odd. a moderate is never truly and can never be an extreme.

migraine.

okay. advert for a fellow 06A201 classmate: DARREN NG's blog. check it out! ;)

anyway i <3 nicoletan but that cow is hardly in town! :(
friendster AND blogger doesnt like her very much apparently! hahaha.

today in church, everything was pretty much good/happy/bright/beautiful/cheerful cept the last bit. i got a bit pissed off cos i asked many times and nicely too. it wont hurt to just say yes and put a stop on it, after all its not true, stupid and way overplayed. i wonder how working together will turn out. gahh. worried i guess cos i do have very high hopes..

i need help this week to pull me thru!

theres this love-hate thing between the term 'mugger' for me.
i'd love to really be one, cos it means im actually really studying for a change
i'd hate (most times), cos if im really even bothering to study does it mean im stupid or what?

hahaha. i remember in my tkgs days during some pastoral care lesson, mr ang played this 'game' like we could buy what we want in our lifes with some budget. i remembered that the only thing i bought was intelligence. not riches, not love, not career, not anything else. just intelligence. woe be to the day i become stupid or foolish.

that being said, if i were really foolish, i wouldnt know it, would i? and id probably be lost in the happy perfect lalaland dreamed up in my head. maybe it might not be such a bad thing after all.

overdued photos

the girl i miss very much- nicole :)

i actually did some proper work tonight. HURRAY!
hahaha maybe i may actually become a mugger FINALLY la. haha does about an hour of work qualify me already? :))))))))

hahaha im damn excited ok!




ok. the card making... haha you DONT want to ask.
im NOT an artist and neither is song xiaowen hahaha. xp's mugging capacity amazes me. oh i saw dennis zhu the pig at changiairport at well when i was there to eat lunch with joan. btw it was SAKAE sushi for lunch :D

busy weekend/days ahead.

i only wish to sleep more.

more time and less things to do please!


about the whole God issue, haha kinda feel not too good. havent been reading my Bible as regularly as i should have been. gah.

spastic ok.

week 9
maths test wed
econs test fri
history test fri

week 10
gatsby vs. heartofdarkness graded essay test mon

thats NOT even counting the hw man! and commitments.
gah!

screw block tests man. i want to go for the Ignite AND Synergiz Conferences. -sighs.

my social life is DYING since i practically live in church in weekends.

am going to xwxp's house today to do the card :) well after i meet joan for lunch at changi airport!
not sure if im going to prayer meeting tonight tho. i woke up feeling very sore veryvery tired this morning. lousy feeling and throw in the red swollen eyes.

late nights and late dates..
with my storybooks hah

i fear fear among everything else.

but one of the most major so called "sub"-fear is the fear of being replaced.
the fear that i cant be goodenough/niceenough/entertainingenough/smartenough blahblahblah hence resulting in me being replaced. be it in a friendship or in a position of leadership, academic, musical skill, or what not.

and you know, its tiring to keep scrambling. continuously.
it can be very disappointing too.
it seems like people always have higher expectations of you than what you can give. you know you do good, perhaps most times better than average, maybe sometimes even better than most, but its still not good ENOUGH; never good enough.

ive never seemed to stop scrambling since day one.
maybe thats why sometimes i dont give a damn at all any more, but too often, it takes only a week or maybe even just a few days to fall back into the same pit hole.

gah.

i know why its never up to mark; i hold it up to all of your eyes.
even one disappointment/disapproval out of a hundred nods marks complete failure.

feeling pretty terrible.

its the eating and eating and MORE eating.
before vday, plus vday and now CNY. gosh i hate looking like a chipmunk ok! chipmunks are cute lah, but im not a chipmunk!

LOOK AT THE CHEEKS ZOMG.

nevermind the scales, i dont give two hoots but heh. what bout all those pretty clothes that ive bought so recently? :( i hope Choy is evil enough to make me run on thursday PE. nevermind that ill complain like crap.

some random: rah-rah-rasputin lover of the russian queen!
the foursixers were supposed to go to the ang(s) houses for CNY. i dont mind small ang, but -shrugs- you know im never the super social person plus i dont think jocelyn and joy are going, so yeah i wouldnt go either. i wanted to watch movie today after the lunch thing at my place was over but i dont wanna just watch movie with ONE other person la :( (damn you brian!)

all i am doing lately is sleep and eat. makes for a great Pig year. hah.

oh and GOODBYE AND TAKE CARE NICOLETANWANPIN! i will miss you like crap la and thanks for not telling me in advance that you were flying off TODAY! :( <3333

and yes, i still want the photos! :)

you know,

if someone says that he or she'd call you back, you'd expect the person to call you back.
if someone says you all are going out on a certain date to get something done, you'd expect it to happen.

its annoying really;
be it, acquaintance friend goodfriend bestfriend girlfriend boyfriend.


right. anyway that was quite random la.
id hardly never tell anyone that. i mean, its logical and reasonable thinking no? haha, if not, youre quite an insensitive scum okay, even if you are my very good friend! hahahaha sorry, but truth hurts! ^^

bout lit assignment, -coughs- i opened it up but no, not a single word been scribbled down yet.

i know lately my posts have more or less been consumed by school and work and more school and more work.

mostly posted during the at-the-heat-of-the-moment kind of feeling.

anyhow, i do know id look back when the year is all past and laugh it all off, like it wasnt that hard after all and such. but for now tho, i guess all the worthless rambling of school life will continue. and i dont want to look back and regret many things.

christine was saying that she wishes she could continue studying forever and ever and never stop. its quite strange that so many of them tell me that working isnt as great as they all expected it to be. hah, but wont that mean that what considered as the happiest times for them then, would be the happiest for me now?? eh thats quite sad leh, i hope i get happier than this. not that im particularly sad or depressed or whatnot, but i guess i THINK i could get happier! i want to get happier.

often what happens now, usually is pretty much trivial. but damned overly exaggerated. reminder to self that it is a mere stepping stone. sometimes tho, you cant help but get caught in all that rubbish hype!

anyway if working isnt any better than the current situation, question is what then are we are toiling away for (or ok supposed to be toiling)? a somewhat interesting/entertaining perspective from a friend's blog:

"To put it into perspective, the answer to the question "how much are you paid?" is going to be "not enough". People work in order to earn money, and the lack of money causes them to work. Is it really the money? Or is it the desire to feel like they're earning? Or the satisfaction they get for the fruits of their labour? Or the hope for a raise or a promotion? In the end, it's some sort of expectation that keeps people ambling down the corridor of life, and also expectation that make them trip and fall when they realise that they're not going to score a date with their ideals anytime soon. It's like going on a date being promised Jessica Alba and ending up with Fiona Xie. The ideal solution would just be earning enough to just get by and sticking with that, but it's been proven that humans are rather slimy creature."

random, but NS seems to have changed people (not the person above tho haha). somewhat older, but somewhat lost as well when they return to civilisation. well, at least some of them anyway.

pretty much strung out.

worship today was odd. the song choices were odd. and i dislike chinese new year songs to death and back. its grating on the nerves! the cheerfulness sounds too fake.

i <3> my new orientatal top from futurestate! my grandparents liked it the best. roflllll its the closest ive gotten to traditional. anyhow the damn tube thing was almost choking off my air circulationary system. im glad i dint die after a long morning and afternoon in that, PLUS eating all the junk. yummy junk tho. :)

think im coming down with sickness of some sort. really unusual to feel this an extent of a combination of lethargy, migraine and grogginess. i want to sleep and not wake up. how long does this race last anyway? i dislike it so intensely, be it metaphorically or physically. i never had much stamina anyway. some speed but hardly any stamina. ha, the annual run better not be a true representation or symbolic of the future. my future.

but !&@% i went to download my lit essay comparison question to read but nothing seems to make sense. think its a consequence of the dull throbbing that does not seem to stop at my temples.. rehana is evil. (ok usually she seems to be a nice person) BUT I NEED A DAMN BREAK. i dont feel like going for visitation tmw, tho my cousins and relatives are lovely people.

i need You to do a miracle; do me a miracle.

i wonder if i should go for Ignite conference. it takes three full days off my march holidays which i probably would need to do some sort of last minute revision hah. especially history. who can imagine march block test would include EVERYTHING, including last year's study on the Cold War. hell.

junior college changes you a lot.

goodnight

OKAY. spastic spastic spastic. apparently ive been blogging quite a bit using the EDITHTML part. rawrrrrr :(

sucha goondu la.

btw my brother is so darn scandalous ok!
he wrote this is his blog:

"Valentine is over. But I just met up with my new gf.

She has a great voice, in fact a crystal clear voice.
When she sings into a mike it sounds perfect.
She also is pitch-perfect.
She's super hot, she has a curvaceous body and I love her back the most.
She let's me put my hand around her neck and allows me to hug her.
The clothes she wear is fabulous and stylish.
She's perfect.

Guess?"

EEYER. WHY WRITE UNTIL LIKE THAT!?

haha btw hes refering to his GUITAR la. his new guitar that set mom and dad back over a grand, maybe nearly 2 grand. but seriously its really pretty. yes even 'hot' like what samuel says.

anyway mj teachers are sadistic! way lots of hw of which im pretty sore about. but i plan to slackslackslack.

oh p.s i hate chinese new year songs. they are so grating on the nerves! :(

not much more to say. i think ill just enjoy this break from school and all. i deserve a good one.


cny in school was the usual. mildly entertaining and end of story.

went to meet the livewire! kids (ok youths) to shop. we bought what we were supposed to and after shopping the entire STRETCH of orchard, i finally bought my oriental top from futurestate! :D haha poor them; i visited THREE futurestates ok (unintentional). one at fareast, one at taka, one at wisma.

ANYWAY I FINALLY BOUGHT IT LA :)

feet hurt and brain refuses to move.
slack slack slack.

BTW weeyang says to all to check out THE AMIN VIDEO. he went to burn himself or something with his own lighter

various issues on my mind.

the compass session today, pretty amusing. but it was annoying in a sense as well. i DONT believe in being so completely dependent on your partner. thats STUPID. no one in the world is completely dependable and reliable 100%. anyway the slides for the talk, i kind of agree with it. 'how do you know you're ready for a relationship?' well. i cant help but immediately think of a recent event. i wont go into the details and i wont go into what i think might/may/will happen. i do hope im wrong. okay, in short im concerned for my friends. fullstop fullstop fullstop.

soccer friendly match today. MJ vs TPJC.
OF COURSE mj won la. 4-1. haha first goal by tpjc so i think they panicked a bit after that. anyhow, tho it was an entertaining match, its still quite different from some of the amazing goals that zul did. i cant believe i thought he was from like MCS or something when he was my ogl. oh btw, i saw that some of the j1s can actually play :) i had a bad impression of some of them (ok most) after this guy attempted to kick a stationary ball but slipped and fell on his butt instead. so malu LOL. soccer is quite a big part of mj's culture la. its the winning streaks that gives any sort of bonding culture crap to mj. im sure esther lai, being the smart woman she is, knows that. anyhow i hope i dont get TOO caught up in the soccer-season-watching thing cos i watched EVERY match last year ahha. even on the days with training, we would peek out very often. and when you hear this roar of noise outside the hall, we would all rush out to see what happened.

im quite behind my work btw.
aha. but the whole chinese new year atmosphere makes me want to slackslackslack. and yeah ive been quite slackish cos of v day already! :(

-tragedy of twos

<3 <3 VALENTINE'S DAY! <3 <3

anyway THANKEWS to: (not in any order)
yanhong brian kenneth yvette manel huiying diyanah serena kenichi adora bel sabrina hannah amin reisha xiwen rani baya takwai sally melanie qiqi syazana weixian yingfang pearlyn jocelyn xueheng pierre jasmine & my angel and my mortal

haha for the various presents/chocolates/sweets/flowers today:D

interesting quote:
yanhong's letter- "Roses are red, Blue is the sky, If you don't be my Valentine, I'll eat till i die." HAHA SO CUTE LOR :D

plus pierre's 'card' was a hoot (his usual crappy gay self), and amin's short note was his usual self but amusing! :) brian's and kenneth's present was superduper sweet la :D kenneth SEWED some heart shaped stuffed toy thing while brian's was really damn pretty and thoughtful. ok la it was damn sweet :) and SO MUCH FOOD OK from the rest of my friends! you guys just want to make me fat :( gah. :P

hehhhh <3

anw tho i really enjoy giving people stuff im kinda glad VDAY is over! mass wrapping/shopping/panic can be painful. financially AND physically. and i can finally get back to my overdued hw hah :) i slept super late past few nights to wrap dozens of presents la.

did i mention how much i LOVE black roses? hahaha. this sounds weird and even goth-like, but i think black roses are the absolute. black is all intense but at the same time, cool and aloof too. but no la i didnt get any black roses this year!

photos: pretty flowers and the various presents received today!





i hope your valentines' day was good too!

tmws valentines day!
so HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ALL :D

haha and to those who dont have HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!

cos of vday presents, i havent done much work and spent ALOT of money, and about 4 hours or so wrapping them up. ugh.


<3

OKAY today was a blur

PE was the same old. i mean, what do you expect from THE uncleChoy huh? ran, and did many sets of sit ups, push ups, dips, and some jumping crap. i think sit ups are horrendously bad for the back la. my back is hurting like cow now.

other lessons were non significant except probly the lesson when i opened a handicap toilet door, cos the normal toilets were being washed, and some doofus didnt lock the door while changing out of PE. i just slammed the door back shut, heck i dont think i can even rmb what he looks like. ahha! the funny part was that the toilet washing aunty who walked out of the cannot-be-used toilet SAW that doofus and i think she was more shocked than i was LOL. she was like "na ge ren shang ce shuo zhen me mei you suo men!" which means why that person go toilet never lock the door LOL.

that and zukai being ATTACHED. yes, THE crazy choozukai who hugged and kissed Muslim during last year's orientation, THE choozukai who danced the girls part of Accidentally in Love, THE choozukai who is always ever so scandalous. when i first heard it a wk back or so (outside class friends), i thought they were kidding man! anyway its out straight from the Horse's Mouth, and icks la. haha i always had this image of a single GAY zukai, pardon me :P and whos the (un?)lucky girl? some councillor la. hahaha ok la i hope he'll be happy :)

was supposed to do a bit of v day materials shopping with brian but that prat is a total pangseh king. nvm, tmws THE actual prearranged shopping day, he better not be an ass again! haha with or without him, im STILL doing my shopping la :D probly will be going taka! :)

all in all an interesting day! a tad weird, but interesting nonetheless!

gave the older youths (my closer friends anw) the candle thing im doing for v day! and JUST finished the general masses v day stuff as well. my fingers are way cramped.

and i totally agree with the msg today.
good stewardship and accountance.

and my NICE korean-inspired/doll top was dubbed as the "pregnant" top by my fellow friends. hahahaha ok admittedly the fronts A BIT poofy.. anyway JUNWEN murdered my 'child' ok, by whacking it so hard! haha they asked whos the daddy. i say junlin lor ;) total pile of rubbish la.

worship was amusing. good, but not in the music practical sense.

oh! and i kept applying the zukai-method on xw today ahaha. he kept going i know you love (insert any youth guy name; kenneth/xp/tim/whoeverelse)! i was like i know you jealous right! dont be la, i still love you ok! -grins. its an EFFECTIVE method. and its true as well; i meant in a siblings-in-Christ way :)

tralalalaness.

oh yeah. and i havent touched on ANY of my sch hw yet at all and im leaving the house in less than an hours time. brilliant or what? BRILLIANT

was talking abit to ps. rachel on msn!

many thoughts.
and i want a closer encounter with God.

i reallyreally do.

it all boils down to Faith.
and Encounters boldens your Faith each time. once is not enough. twice is not enough. it will never be enough when you know Him.

i believe this is THE year for all of the above. (NOT the below!)

plenty of worries of the late tho. of school, of friends, of youth, of cell, of JAMMED PACK SCHEDULE. but yup Trust the Lord your God with all your Heart and all your Soul and lean not on your own understanding. Cast all your sorrows and burdens on Him and He will make your path straight. not biblically accurate word for word, but thats the gist of some verses that i do remember! horrendously bad at the verse numbers that kind of thing tho.

id love God to send me an email one day tho. or even better, an SMS :D how brilliant is that or what? :D

tralala chinese new year clothes this year stinks.
REALLY REALLY stinks.

hah. GUESS WHAT I BOUGHT.
ONE dark pink nike TEEshirt. that shows how bad it is ok! i saw this brilliant red and black club marc's dress at 110 dollars.

anw i was slouching around shopping today. after youth, a BIT moody la. not BECAUSE of youth but rather cos i gained weight IN MY FACE. :( i dont care for weight, but rather how i look ahah. a bit image conscious la.

all the KFCs *coughs guess whose fault*, IKEA, Swensens (nicole darling's idea!), Ben&Jerry's and so on within a week or so. yummy but absolutely fattening. plus today's nat's absolutely delish cocoction made up of mainly chocolate, cheese, loveletters and so on. YUMMY OK. i <3 food. ok la i promise to try to run during uncleChoy's PE class ok? no more strolling :D

i more or less figured out the general masses' vday stuff. the specialised ones, i.e my darlings, not yet im sorry! :( i have lots to give/make anyway. like 50 hah. from school, from church.

i havent touched any of my hw yet. how brilliant of me.

anyway am finally going to wear that doll-looking/korean-influenced top tmw to church! hahaha. lets hope i wake up happy :)

anw CONGRATS to JW JL SARAH & XW bout O LVLS! :D <3 <3 <3
and CONGRATS to my darling PHOBOSTWOfreshies who i am sure did brilliant/well/notbad! :) even if you didnt, michelle is still very proud of you la :)

all in the v day mood. MICHELLE LOVES YOU! really.
haha even if i dont usually show it ^^

<3 LIVEWIRE
<3 THREESOME
<3 MELB. ROOMIES
<3 CARTOONGANG
<3 S2
<3 06A201

<3 <3 <3

the greatest gift of all- His Grace.
thank you for carrying me thru thus far! :)

yes michelle is hyperhyperhyper. you can tell it when she starts talking about herself as tho she is describing some OTHER person :P

oh some random thought. WWJD?
havent thought about that in some time. but its time to really :)

the photo of todays pierrejasmineme&dennis dinner; one of anyway!



what do i want?
stability.
appreciativeness.
happiness.
peace.

sometimes in certain aspects i find i try too hard.
-sometimes.

today! lets not talk bout econs test ok. that was the worse test EVER for me.

went to ikea with kenneth for lunch. meatballs roxor :) bought some stuff for v day as well. met gladys there- she bought lunch for mak, shes so damn nice lor she pampers that makwaikiong so darn much.

anyway hist lecture.
*cough*

went to check with kenneth that brian wasn too emo bout his grades since he didnt pick up his phone NOR smses. basically we went to bedok north sec sch la. he turned out pretty okay, not brilliant, but okay :) yanhong was supposed to find us but she didnt! :( :( :( and well, kenneth koh is a super nice person to accompany me all the way to brian's school (and ok, ikea as well!). haha and sorry bout the later bit la ^^ brian must be super honored ok! :D

dinner with dennis pierre jasmine at changi airport popeyes :) those two clowns are always talking a lot of nonsense. jasmine is the only sane one there. photos with zhu, uploading LATER as well. its good to finally see him with some hair heh.

pretty much a brilliant day :D

<3

oh i think i shall be moving over to LiveJournal. blogger has gone all sucky lately :(

hahahahhaa im so darn amused. JUNWEN STALKS GUYS OKAY! so all you poor tpjc boys better watch out. -grins.


busy busy busy. lit essay dued tmw, and so's econs test AND history tutorial. rawr.

im a skeptic towards the reliability of all humans.
prove me wrong.

i want to go to the london economics trip sounds FANTASTIC and MANEL is going. but rawr, my schedule is really jammed pack and horrible! :( theres church camp the last wk of june hols too, RIGHT BEFORE mid years. brilliant right? hah.

yay get to see dennis the pig tmw :D tralala

-the tragedy of two-

dental tralala NO NEED TO GO ANYMORE :D hahaha. im ecstatic.

and met nicoletanwanpin aka thebestfriend as well. we had swensens for lunch (at FOUR pm)and ben&jerry's after. hahaha so fattening man! but the shittake mushrooms in tartar sauce was wow. better than the baked rice x100!

anyway i bought a set of three hairbands from SIX. was quite expensive but DAMN NICE CAN? :D gold, silver and bronze. so nice! nicole bought the same set. anyway we went to quite a few shops; topshop espirit zara mango etc this season's designs arent that great really! but saw this gorgeous white demin skirt at topshop tho. but its really short as well haha ^^ anyway we did a bit of camwhoring, after all, i wont get to see her once she leaves after Chinese New Year for Melbourne for a year all over again! :(((

ill post the photos from her phonecamera when shes sent them to me :) my phonecam died some time back :(

v day is so fun la! haha im doing stuff for my class, wonder what to do for the guys tho! i also ordered flowers for my friends in other JCs :D

and i also saw The Boyfriend (nicole's) before i left haha!

falala michelle is in a damn good mood man.
i shall sleep earlier tonight. i was half asleep through econs lit then maths. it was TERRIBLE OKAY.

but one good thing in school today! xiwen's back finally :D haha i missed her la :)

Your Name, is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name, is a shelter like no other
Your Name, let the nations sing it louder
'cause nothing has the power to save
but Your Name.

anyway cos of today's splurging im WORRIED. very short of cash and im supposed to ikea with kenneth for lunch on fri and alfafresco with pierre jasmine dennis for dennis that night. oh PLUS I HAVE TO PAY FOR THE FLOWERS :(

damn. i hate the feeling of SHORT OF MONEY. its a disgusting feeling that i usually do NOT anticipate often at all.

am veryvery tired i shall not sleep so late at night anymore. even an hour more of sleep would do me good :D

that being said i got my maths test back. a D. disappointing. i told kenneth before that if i got anything less than a C, i wouldnt be happy at all. worse part was to look at the marked script and to realise that i could have easily attained a high B or even an A, just due to ONE careless mistake which had me omitting ONE factor from the previous equation. blah. hahaha typical INTJ personality la; always expecting high standards from herself/himself! maths is supposed to be my better subject, unlike my absymal history.

TMW IM SEEING NICOLETAN. to shopshopshop after dental! (hopefully for CNY clothes!) but dental is so :( la. cos i dont think i can wear my retainers anymore. not that my teeth shifted quite a big deal, but rather it was just a teenyweeny bit. but the retainers are made to fit 100% la, so yeah. the thing.. doesnt quite fit. but my teeth are still perfectly straight okay! :D

school week doesnt feel as hectic as week ends for sure. weekends are plain S-U-F-F-O-C-A-T-I-N-G. church duties one too many especially when weekends are the times teachers love to load with essays.

that being said since im shopping tmw, training on thurs, and going out for dinner with pierre jasmine at dennis' restaurant on friday.. i have to squeeze in more work. like LIT essay which i havent started. or studying for econs test. tralala im such a slacker/procrastinator/perhaps just plain lazy? brian is mean la, he always says lazy is my middle name!

angel and mortal game in school is.. fascinating. a mix of dread and some sort of excitement. hahaha why excitement? cos im sadistic la, i had a good laugh when i saw who was my friend's mortal! -grins. as for my mortal.. i do mean to do SOMETHING la. lets just hope i dont FORGET about it, caught up in other things and all. i was joking with jasminetan that i wouldnt get some science weirdo. most science people are nice la, but i had a bad impression of A FEW of them who rushed up to bombard the teacher with relentless questions, and seem to keep wanting to extend the lesson :S hahaha lessons' are as long as it should be already! :)

oh and i ordered flowers for some old friends in other schools! :D thats costing a huge hole in my pocket. dont just wave it off as michelle-can-afford-it-la, cos lately, i dunno why ive been really TIGHT on cash. its weird.

How wonderful
How beautiful
Name above every Name
Exalted High

the strength to fly. :)

hahahaha. weird day.

anyhow, i DO have a rough guess on who visits this blog and how often. i mean, there ARE such things as IP checkers after all. tho IP checkers obviously do not reveal the exact names of the users, you can check its source la. especially some sources are SUPER familiar can? hahaha. its just WEIRD that some people read your blog la. like really darn weird.

humanmetrics test is so darn interesting.

im glad to be done of econs essay and history!
one left- lit which MR WEE IS SO SO SO NICE TO EXTEND TILL FRIDAY out of his own accord! wheeeness :D

i knew i wanted to blog about SOMETHING. but i seem to have forgotten what :(

i cant wait to go out with pierre and jasmine to kazao dennis at his workplace on friday :D

i miss nicole, WHEN DO I GET MY DATE HUH.

oh yes i just remembered. i cant help but think that MOST of guys-schooled guys are deprived. some of the j1s look like they have never seen girls before. and some FRIENDS have demostrated their lack of -cough- female companionship as well. hahaha. you know who you are la.

omg. im sorry la, but i half want to strangle somebody now!
and that would be my assistant cell leader.

'ask sam' would be the most repetitive phrase ever.

sorry la. your quite a nice person, and gifted enough as well, but sometimes your non-communicativeness makes me want to stepstepstep on you!

forgive me for ranting okay? :)
-

oh i took the humanmetrics test mj wanted us to take at www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/Jtypes1.htm im a INTJ

INTROVERT OKAY. hahaha i just knew it ^^
okay la, the exact phrase was 'slightly expressed introvert'

-grins

okay this is the FIRST sunday ever that im not at church. it feels kind of weird anyway. WHY? because of the stupid history essay :( :( okay la plus econs and lit, but thats due tues i think.

this morning better not be a waste of time.

but i am so damn tired la.
so damn tired.

can you believe i missed shopping yesterday night cos i wanted to sleep?
unbelievable right.


fit in a new song
a new star, unblemished
for the cries come
of heart. take charge
wait, and no longer
for the time has come
in many ways more than one.

am really quite annoyed.

mj's h1 history notes are absolute RUBBISH. i hardly take on a very strong tone on this blog, but i do now for this instance. ive been attempting to write my history essay for some time, but the bloody notes are absolutely USELESS. no links. no explanations. no elaborations. no EXAMPLES. bloody hell.

am very exasperated. had to read tons of more rubbish on the internet (especially wikipedia) in abid to complete this essay. as of now, im only on the SECOND paragraph. hah, and the first is an introduction.

rawrr.

okay im giving up for now. going to church soon.

btw road race was totally slack for me. officiating rockkkss :D

had an interesting conversation with brian today.
part of me relishes, but part of me dislikes it and its complexities, how it is capable of dehumanising humans. two of the words, in particular, were 'specimen' and 'useful'. sometimes id love to dwell in plain simplicity, but that will never happen. a balance of sorts have to be struck up, for certes.

at the same time, id love to be able to trust all my supposedly good friends with all i have. however, always am and always will be the skeptic. some things i never talk about, as you may realise. some things, although i dotrust with a certain extent, i do not tell. its either wrong person, bad timing, or a event too thoughtprovoking that i dont wish to bring up. eitherways, it elimates just about everyone.

anyhow, today went to dental to find out in horror that dental ISNT today, but NEXT WEDNESDAY. eww. had my locks chopped off as well; am in relative conflict whether i like it or not. neater it may be, but it makes me look YOUNGER. much younger lol.

oh and okay la, THANK YOU KENNETH KOH for accompanying me whilest i was in a mild emo state.

history essay is horrible. im stuck at writing out just the QUESTION it self. :( not to mention theres still LIT essay, ECONS essay, maths tutorial, econs test which are due the start of coming wk. so disgusting la. I DONT HAVE ANY TIME IN THE WEEKEND CAN? :(

i still <3 S-sq.
<3
never mind that CHEE YAN HONG daoed me today! :P hahaha i love guilt tripping :DD

a whirl of a day.
pe, sickbay, training. missed maths, gp and compass. sleep feels good ^^

not seeing yanhong and kenneth today feels WEIRD.


my ankle feels strange. kind of fear a relapse :( :( :(
ugly knee still.

but YAY i get to see nicoletan tmw! <333

just have to figure out how to complete gp compre AND history essay by tmw morning. its crazy.


a conflict; but one things for sure. its not my own happiness that i seek

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