mainly the whole deal with ANY of this family's holiday trips is that it is filled with a lot of grass sighting, tree huggin' and nature lovin'

it is the very basis of the whole ideal of what my parents think a good wholesome holiday should be like. and as you know, i have little appreciation for stropping across long boardwalks to look at things like random rock formations (i.e the 12 Apostles which arent even 12 in the first place!)

anyway that holiday wasnt that bad i suppose. some days were hell, some days better.

our aussie friend's place is BRILLIANT. its like a whole holiday inn in itself. a whole billiards table, drum sets, huge amps, the guitars, keyboard, playstation filled with tons of games, food. it was pretty fun when we were there.

did a little shopping. i wont define it as very big. i only bought three items of clothings; a dress, cut off jeans, a shirt. reason being before australia, i already went shopping in singapore for 2 consecutive weeks for clothes for cousin's wedding. but i bought lots of small cute stuff in australia! like earrings hhaha <3

anyway ill do even MORE christmas shoppin in singapore so there.

im glad to be back tho

okay IM BACK!
but youth leadership starting friday.

quite tired shall update more later on :)

-waves. am in australia now shall only be back on coming thursday of which friday i would be at youth leadership camp.

its summer here, but its still kinda cold which is good :)
love cold weather

anyway havent done much shopping at all, been traveling from place to place doing mainly the whole scenery thing. its alright i guess, (okay i dont really enjoy it). best times are probably hanging around in the different hotels. hahaha! anyway melbourne city shopping is overrated and too expensive. suburban malls are MUCH BETTER. went shopping today at suburbans to no avail- got sick today. yes sick enough to cut short shopping :S hahaha i didnt look at much things at all before i ran out of the mall back to the house we were stayin in

feel #*@^! guilty about the mounting work i have not touched in ages!
feel @&!^# weird that i havent touched my phone in days hahaha

australia is so much more relaxed than singapore, definitely.
next year scares me very much.

okay flying off TONIGHT
slightly worried about the riots in the city of melbourne due to the G20 summit :S

im sure the econs melbourne trip people will be so jealous haha! :P

shall miss church, and some friends. :)
see you all in 2 weeks!

oh btw, i helped samuel crap up 4 blog posts for his english assignment from school using some vocab words. hilarious! you should see it. anyway, apparently my parents read my blog.

HI MOM, HI DAD!!
~waves.

ugh. how weird! haha

okay, friday night threw Natasha her surprise birthday party we've planned for superduper long. we got her this puma bag its &@!% expensive and plus Swensen's ice cream cake and some other junk we threw in. well hope she liked it. anywa finally taught Tim, Xp & Joan how to play bridge. the first few times i wanna to cry la, partnering with tim or xp. they happily ate my cards up, even wasting a few nice Aces or picture cards :S but anw they kinda got the hang of it :) brilliant, more people to play with. hahaha! saturday was quite fun la tho it started off really lousy.

saturday morning went to some really big nice catholic church for Adeline's wedding. super long service. lunch at the ShangriLa. <3 the food there. my favourite and better than the dinner one at Four Seasons! i think i ate at least 18 courses from lunch to dinner. ugh. tonight's at ritz. tho the food will probly be good, im out of training :( sighs.

shall fly off tmw night for melbourne and see you nicole tan on tuesday! :D

probly one thing is weighing on my mind
and wont let go. ughhhhhhh.

i wanna watch Step Up, the Prestige, the Guardian, and Casino Royale. hopefully i can catch ALL of them on the plane tmw night :D

see yall soon!

after melbourne --> youth leadership camp
im so excited haha

hah.

did my first post on liang tong's lit blog since i wont be doing it for some time to come as i will be away for a good 2 weeks at least.

r tagged me to do this so i shall be obliging to do A FEW of them, the original's way too long:
LOVE
1. homosexual, bisexual, heterosexual
hetero. im perfectly straight, but i do look at girls lol ;)
2. in relationship now?
sadly, not
3. heart broken before?
definitely who hasnt
4. what would you do if your boyfriend cheated on you?
kick him out on his sorry cheating ass
5. what are you looking for in a guy?
loves God, do some sports, some music, capable, easy going, faithful, not obsessive to cut the long list short
6. when do you want to get married?
im hoping some time before the A lvls and to some one with the above qualities AND rich, so i dont have to study ever again :P

im prayin for tonight

sometimes i wish i was made simpler
heck the money, money's worthless most times.

OH and yes i got a bit darker :DDDDDDD

today met joy at BK in the morning for breakfast then went to ECP for some tanning, i coped her suntanning lotion, i really hope i got darker :D

on the way to HabourFront, met yixuan on the bus. he looks so different man!

met pierre to enter sentosa :) dennis that pig pangsehed us :P haha he should be feeling extremely guilty la. but a dinner might just make up for it! zhihan and mak were already playing volleyball with some HwaChong people. played some volleyball, swam some as well. they said i looked like i was drowning :S hahaha well its cos i kept sticking my head up to see direction cos the water was too deep and salty to see anything. think pierre and mak got jelly fish bites. anw jasmine and junyu appeared later on after their council meeting :D me and jas did some swimming while the guys played soccer with the HwaChong people. it was quite relaxing la, and pretty fun. and thank goodness zhihan was brilliant enough to bring soap, shampoo AND facial wash :D i completely forgot about that in my rush to get out of the house.

left sentosa pretty late at 7plus for dinner at Carl's Jr in Vivo. it was quite funny man, when mak asked the lady to recount the bill cos when he calculated it was different. okay, but it turned out correct, just that the bill was too weird to be read properly. another girl from mj, gladys, joined us later when we were done with dinner.

all in all, a pretty nice day; relaxing and great
jokes and insults were of course, will be always there with this group of people. :) of course, no one ever takes offence
and i believe i got some tan :D

tmw, exciting day. and looking forward to the weekend's multiple wedding sessions. i happen to think Adeline and her husband to be are extremely compatible and i cant wait to see some cousins i havent seen in some time, like Christine.

ironical that maybe about 4 years ago we (christine & i) used to hang out every weekend. now it has dwindled down to the few times the family gathers for occasions like chinese new year, christmas or grandparents birthday.

:)

and of course, soon, melbourne here i come!

thank you:
weeyang
nicole
shinyu
xiwen
serena
timothy

i mean it

friends can be such <3
it feels better to get things off your chest, and to know some people actually noticed without me telling them :)

its trying you know.

im trying to be a nicer person
to be more tactful even with my straightforwardness

i would never bitch behind anyone's back but i wont lie either.

i cant be the perfect person
i wont and will never be a Miss Sweet, that will never ever happen. not in hell not in heaven, not ever



but if you are telling me i cant even joke, theres a serious flaw there
is there something wrong with ME or with a lot of you out there?

its like putting too much effort but no one notices it

fish. talking to this one person always ends lands me in a lousy mood i dont even know why i bother so damn much. try so damn much. not that the person recognises it anyway. for all i know, i may just seem emo. pah.

hurt? hell yeah. but i wont ever say it of course.
lol. ironic and bitter about THE highlight of this week.

sometimes the people that burn you the most wouldnt be the guy you had the longest liking for, or the person youre dating, or even your parents or family

maybe it could be your friends
your friend of manymany years.

at least you think that person's your friend.
lol
-

well i fucking tried so hard
why isnt it paying off

i hate phewing vulgarities on my blog, but well, here i am sighs

so many things i want to know
i want to know why

tag replies:
yvette- how could you have not known? hahaha :P
denise- when i remember i will! :D
reyes- hows SNOW over there?? im insanely jealous
christine- awww :S i liked that store never mind that it is expensive
manel- haha i miss you toom anel! :) yahhh i know. im still waiting for hot chocs and its been HALF A YEAR! :( hopefull some time soon :P
weeyang- haha the pot calling the kettle black. like you dunno how to play card games la. lolll.. besides, no money is involved ^^

ugh. i slept EARLY last night at about 1 to wake up at 2 pm today...

:(

i shall enjoy a quiet day at home today :) haha a rare occurence. its too late to go out anyway :S

blah. i DONT want to get started on history from scratch. i hate history at mj to death and back. notice the italics.

tralala

GOODBYE TO PW :)
good riddance to bad trash

bought something todayyy very pleased with it yum yum! secret teehee

went to xpxw's house with joan. xw was out for a math exams but yeah we were hanging out, was fun and i taught them how to play Taitee. imagine this, both of them never ever played Taitee before. how shocking LOL. i found out i stunk at table tennis and i think i am slightly deaf now. xp's drumming was way loud but it was quite good. hahaha xw was in a considerable good mood after his paper. such gayness ^^ and xp owes me big time for that SBQ i did for him. smirks. although it was rubbish work, but still... hahaha.

altogether a fun day :D

I WANNA WATCH STEP UP.
i know some of the class watched it today, but was too dead beat to go find them in cine. so slacked at xpxw's house yup its a brilliant place for those who adore music and for slacking. theres a whole band jamming set and the best there is too. throw in a pingpong table in the basement and media equipment and its nothing short of fantastic.

now if only my house could hold a whole jamming set too! hahaha

i think i cant connect at all with younger kids. especially those who are 4 years younger or even more. sometimes, they dont make ANY SENSE at all.

and when the clock ticks 12 tonight:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATASHA TAN YUTING
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELANIE KANG TYE YI

lots of <33

feeling insanely guilty for being such a procrastinator
for being such a slacker

but hey~ today was SUCH a good day :)

no raining on my parade

was dregging up the past with joan

man am i glad im out of my lower secondary days
some may say now MJ is hell, i say lower sec was x1000 that with family problems, relationship problems, church problems, school problems all thrown in together



im glad im out of it :)
out of the rut


tralala todays attempt to do hw was not a success. sighs :(

the christmas spirit

as a kid i loved christmas, it was the time where i did get to go to so many parties and have so much fun. but i remember it lost its flavour a couple years ago, it got sickeningly routine.

house to house.
pasting on a smile and the need to entertain guests- not my idea of fun.

it was that whole young moody emo stage where i prefered to coop myself up with a book or with my music. i didnt care much bout the uncles and aunties that i barely knew.

now is different.
i <3 christmas

its not just about getting presents, its about hanging out with close ones. :)
i enjoy getting my friends things. its fun. i know what its like to be happy when it is shown that someone DOES care..

did i mention how much i <3 my aunt? seriously la. shes not sophisticated shes not super educated, but shes got a good soul, shes generous, she always means well. haha yeah and she dotes on me :)

sadly this year, two families in the youth will be away during christmas :( sarah & tim's and xw & xp's

of course not forgetting to celebrate God's day :)

tralala. i know its SUPER early to be talking about christmas la. but today's carolling put me in a good mood.

the Banquet's ending is too abrupt! ugh. i wanna know why Zhang Ziyi died and who killed her :( sighs.

OK brilliant!

ive found someone to accompany me to do my hw- joan. smirks. tmw i shall go to the MP library in the morning :) yay. i shall feel less guilty after that. the past wks have been nothing but party.

church was brilliant today. not pitch perfect, but well, like happy brilliant. christmas carolling practice was hilarious. supposed to have a guitar only, but we were hamming it up so bad with the vocals my side was in stitches! throw in an impromptu drumming and keyboardin by xp and xw respectively and it was really fun :)

haha seeing darren carrying little ruth made me laugh

i hardly wear my pink heels but i did today. bad idea- cos tho they are pretty i cant walk well in them. i kept stumbling on them.

OH i bought a red and black adidas sling bag yesterday :) actually i initially picked it out for my brother, but after that i decided i liked it too. both of us bought the same bag. hahahaa i mean, different schools what. so yeah i dont really care :) bought two plain tops as well, quite cheap also. anyway i trimmed my hair at the stylist's yesterday morning, i like it better now tho you probably wont be able to see the difference :P i find it so fun to shop for guys. seriously, most of sam's newer and nicer stuff was bought/picked/chosen by me. it's fun

tuesday is to school and out with joan and maybe a few others from the youth :D bored souls. wednesday and thurs joy and joce are probably stayin over and thurs we will most probably attend 4E6's class gathering. friday will be a blast as well :) oh and probably another celebration for a school mate.

party party party.
lol i feel intensely guilty

but happy.
yup pretty much happy :)

jiayou to my friends who are taking the O's and A's!

<3

ARGH. ive never been so frustrated.

shopping EVERYDAY for the past week cos of the need to buy three sets of clothes for cousins wedding is making me feel EXTREMELY guilty. that being that i havent started on my school hw which i desperately need to clear by end of the coming week before the weddin sessions and before i fly off to melbourne. when im back, its right straight into youth leadership camp and a whole string of confirmed activities. im worried about what is not confirmed but is to come :S a couple of them are already clashing. sighs. so busy that i have no time to do anything esle :(

i need SOMEONE to sit with me so that ill do my work. im serious. i have to clear this. I HAVE TO.
im desperate. ANY ONE WILL DO.

my school friends are still partying away, some are working
my church mates are either a)finished school and partyin as well b)holiday jobs c)all of the above
my outside school mates, heck, since when do they ever do their hw.

SHIT.

although admittedly i enjoy shopping, it is a wrong perception that i buy many things. haha A LOT of people think im a shopaholic, a spendthrift. xw is one of them. :P i beg to differ

yes while i may go out and look at things, i hardly do buy expensive things. c'mon i dont even own a pair of levi's and i think paying 100 bucks for a skirt is crazy. i knoq i dont buy cheap things, but idefinitely wont pay 500 bucks for a dress of which i can find similar in some other shop. i saw this dress in Song+Kelly which i adore, but the price i detest. :(

i just do a lot of window shopping when it comes to clothes. -shrugs.
im just short of a plain black top, a longer than my usual skirt, jeans, a semidressy jacket and im fit to go :)

okay i know that seems a lot :S but my wardrobe is really empty! i wont buy all at one go tho.. thank goodness Christmas is coming :D

now, i wish i owned Isetan Wisma. it houses lots of brands that i love. DKNY Espirit Song+Kelly and the works. :D

prison break is damn interesting man :)

i love Famous Amos coookehhs! <3

went shopping with my mother at Wisma today. both good and bad i guess :S good thing, she pays and i can buy things that cost more. bad thing... she's REALLY picky. a lot of things she dont like me to buy and some things i cant stand she likes. admittedly her sense of style isnt bad, but its one of a 40+ year old white collar working adult hello? she was overjoyed with the starchy grey-black skirt while although i dont hate it, its not something i will ever wear to go out with friends or to go shopping. only for formal occasions- like adeline's upcoming wedding. bought another white top its quite cute :D

adeline's wedding is super weird la. grand for sure, but strange. on the saturday morning is the church service then lunch at ShangriLa. at night is the dinner held by Adeline's husband's family at Four Seasons which i think is 5 or 6 stars. then the next night's dinner is at Ritz Carlton by Adeline's side. what a joke la :S my other uncle was going on about maybe we needed a breakfast at One Fullerton to complement it all on the morning itself. i thought usually both sides will combine into ONE dinner la :S hahaha. shopping frenzy.

i saw this adorable black dress, high waisted spoofy but classy skirt SO NICE LA. but too low cut :(

tmw ill have to go to school JUST to hand up one ogl camp form which im not even goin :S sighs. goin to school is SO BOTHERSOME :(

mr chiangs takin ages to return my I&R.

i cant wait for stayover, for wedding, for melbourne, for youth leadership camp, for youth retreat, for class chalet, for christmas program, for christmas parties! wheeee~

was reading an email about the whole hoo-ha about Derek Wee's forum post and Wee Shumin's reply to his post. heard of it some time ago but only read the thing in actual form today.. haha okay im slow :P

derek wee's post was on foreign talent and how being 40 was deemed as over the hill. wee shumin's reply was indeed harsh, perhaps even insensitive but i feel that she has a right to have an opinion. there is no right or wrong in an opinion. you may disagree with someone, but that is YOUR opinion. similarly if she posts it, she should expect backlash from others as she had responded to another person's (derek sim's) opinions and views.

her post:
Thursday, October 19, 2006
mom's friend sent her some blog post by some bleeding stupid 40-year old singaporean called derek wee (WHY do all the idiots have my surname why?!) whining about how singapore is such an insecure place, how old ppl (ie, 40 and above) fear for their jobs, how the pool of foreign "talent" (dismissively chucked between inverted commas) is really a tsunami that will consume us all (no actually he didn't say that, he probably said Fouren Talern Bery Bad.), how the reason why no one wants kids is that they're a liability in this world of fragile ricebowls, how the government really needs to save us from inevitable doom but they aren't because they are stick-shoved-up-ass elites who have no idea how the world works, yadayadayadayada.

i am inclined - too much, perhaps - to dismiss such people as crackpots. stupid crackpots. the sadder class. too often singaporeans - both the neighborhood poor and the red-taloned socialites - kid themselves into believing that our society, like most others, is compartmentalized by breeding. ridiculous. we are a tyranny of the capable and the clever, and the only other class is the complement.

sad derek attracted more than 50 comments praising him for his poignant views, joining him in a chorus of complaints that climax at the accusation of lack of press freedom because his all-too-true views had been rejected by the straits times forum. while i tend to gripe about how we only have one functioning newspaper too, i think the main reason for its lack of publication was that his incensed diatribe was written in pathetic little scraps that passed off as sentences, with poor spelling and no grammar.

derek, derek, derek darling, how can you expect to have an iron ricebowl or a solid future if you cannot spell?

if you're not good enough, life will kick you in the balls. that's just how things go. there's no point in lambasting the government for making our society one that is, i quote, "far too survival of fittest". it's the same everywhere. yes discrimination exists, and it is sad, but most of the time if people would prefer hiring other people over you, it's because they're better. it's so sad when people like old derek lament the kind of world that singapore will be if we make it so uncertain. go be friggin communist, if uncertainty of success offends you so much - you will certainly be poor and miserable. unless you are an arm-twisting commie bully, which, given your whiny middle-class undereducated penchant, i doubt.

then again, it's easy for me to say. my future isn't certain but i guess right now it's a lot brighter than most people's. derek will read this and brand me as an 18-year old elite, one of the sinners who will inherit the country and run his stock to the gutter. go ahead. the world is about winners and losers. it's only sad when people who could be winners are marginalised and oppressed. is dear derek starving? has dear derek been denied an education? has dear derek been forced into child prostitution? has dear derek had his clan massacred by the government?

i should think not. dear derek is one of many wretched, undermotivated, overassuming leeches in our country, and in this world. one of those who would prefer to be unemployed and wax lyrical about how his myriad talents are being abandoned for the foreigner's, instead of earning a decent, stable living as a sales assistant. it's not even about being a road sweeper. these *#$@bags don't want anything without "manager" and a name card.

please, get out of my elite uncaring face.

i do not agree with the name calling, however i agree that she has a right to post whatever she wants. my parents disagree, talking of her attitude and whatnot. but i feel she has a few valid points. it IS a dog eat dog world, it IS a survival of the fittest, as sad as it may be. it isnt merely taking place in the working world but in our students' everyday life as well. MJ is only too good an example. not good enough? retain or get kicked out. and we all know that if we cant make A lvls with good grades, we've wasted two years and here we go back to polytechnics. pressure cooker? hell yes.

she should have just been more careful with her use of words or be more moderate, if she didnt want a backlash. however, if she doesnt care... thats another thing all by itself. and besides, often enough, in the heat of the moment, a person DOES rant and on his/her own blog.

bottom line is there is no wrong in voicing an opinion. however, how an opinion is expressed, can be contentious.

anyway this is interesting, opinion's on weeshumin's post
http://www.youngpap.org.sg/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=11599&start=0

and her apology of sorts of which she sounds more rational now
http://weikiatblog.blogspot.com/2006/10/wee-shu-mins-apology.html

:)

PLENTY of forum posting, some very interesting indeed. some singaporeans have proven themselves to have an extremely commendable standard of english of which i am very impressed with. hah! who says singaporeans' standard of english is falls (very) short in comparison to our western counterparts?

i like what this forumer posted on www.weikiatblog.blogspot.com:
gingerspiceee says
I think you guys are missing out on a huge point in Shu Min's post:"is dear derek starving? has dear derek been denied an education? has dear derek been forced into child prostitution? has dear derek had his clan massacred by the government?"

It's not an elite vs non-elite issue that we see. It's not an elite "who thinks she's so great therefore no one can match up to her". And it's definitely not an "RJC/Child of MP" superiority complex. What I see is someone who is venting her frustration at the fact that the public is taking OUR GOVERNMENT for granted. I'm afraid Singaporeans have had life too easy for them. We fail to see what our government has done for us: clean roads, a green city, subsidized housing and education, scholarships and bursaries so that everyone will be given a chance for education and be duly rewarded for hard work, the Progress Package which tries to reduce the income inequality amongst us, excellent investment incentives and business facilities, cable TV, TV mobile, whatever TV, CPF (mind you, it's because of this that we have one of the highest saving rates in the world), and what have you. The list just goes on. Clearly, Shu Min was just frustrated (ok, very frustrated) at the number of things that we Singaporeans always ask for, always complain about, but fail to realise the number of things that the goverment has done for us. If not for the government, would we be here today, living in such a beautiful place?

We must not forget that we are such a small country. An island to be exact. Yet we have one of the most efficient governments who know how to make the best use of our scarce resources and turn our island into a truly cosmopolitan, globalised city. It's cliche, but it's true.

I feel that Shu Min is just telling Derek, or us, that the government has laid all it has down in front of us and it's up to us to use these opportunities wisely. We can't always expect the government to be giving us everything - giving us everything on a silver platter, and not giving in return to the country.We are one of the most developed SEA countries. It does say something about what our government has done for us, doesn't it? And it's not just Singapore that's facing the problem of age discrimination, low birth rates, the pressure of keeping up our competitiveness: IT'S HAPPENING EVERYWHERE. It's a global problem peeps. It's not just Singapore! We are facing all these problems because of globalisation, because we're moving into a new era where we just can't afford to lose a second. Everyone just needs to keep getting younger and younger. It’s the new fact of life: We’re in the 20th century. Keep up.

We have to stop taking our good government for granted. If anyone can tell me why they aren’t a good government, please do. I guess it was also wrong of her to make such personal attacks against Derek. But then again, that’s what you do when you’re frustrated, so just chill y’all. And it’s not a matter of who’s smarter or more elitist, it’s whether or not one faces up to this new reality and day. Let's not be angry people, I'm sure we have better things to do =)

just some random thoughts.
it is quite an interesting debate. im wholly moderate and i see both sides of the coin.

youth leadership camp will be so exciting :) i cant wait. im sure all the leaders are capable enough. yes every single one of them.

cant wait to meet nicole as well. i just got to catch her online soon to finalise the details :S OP is over, tho im not too sure how some of my other members did. i dont think i did badly, but not as fantastic as i hope it would have been. it was okay. I&R is up, i just want to do one or two good drafts and get it over with.

yesterday night was an interesting night.

played pool with shinyu xiwen jiayi diy ken weeyang amin and saw dennis zhu in parkway today :D

my holidays are busier than school days. i guess ill have to cram my homework before i go melbourne on 21st November. after that is youth leadership camp, youth retreat, christmas programme, ogl stuff. all that in under a month :S

<3>

pretty wiped out. chinese paper yesterday was easier than school's so i was feelin pretty good. and i went Bugis with xiwen and her friend to go shopping! bought sam a shirt and got a nice pair of shorts. :D walked the entire afternoon. so very good calves muscles toning exercise hurhur.

shinyu darren mel came over to my house after shopping to do PW model. well its a last ditch effort to clinch an EE for overall presentation :D haha well shin and darren were at my house till 5 AM this morning :P but of course, we had a few Bridge and Taitee card game breaks :D

presenting a couple of weird but interesting scenes:
mel and her darlin Disney Princesses obsession
why Darren makes a good potential house wife :D hahaha!

TADAH. final product :D

i really enjoy going to church :) and im completely excited about melbourne with nicole, leadership camp, youth camp, christmas program!! whoohoo :D

tmw's chinese. will be glad to get it done and OVER with. tmw's last OP dry run. hurray!

:( im sorry i couldnt go meet you guys today :(
feel damn bad la. arranged so long ago, since they were flying in and i havent seen them in such a long time, but last minute had to do PW. so yeah :( and theres no way i can catch them before they leave tmw, at 1pm cos its chinese then OP dry run :(

:( :( :(

and i still need to talk to NICOLE TAN WANPIN urgent to finalise my melbourne trip details. sms me, email me, msn me; whichever :P

its bloody not fair that racket games give you awful arms :(

time to sleep :D my guess is ill wake past dinner time ^^

running towards fantasy
island of greenery, the children frolick
breeze, hair strewn back
bare feet padding on the ground

forward, marks across the sands
ringlets of twines
flow of the sea the music
rings and waves, it enchants.
-

600th entry on THIS blog :) and probably the 7th or so year since ive started blogging. old hand -grins

i wont wander too far away from the path while i pursue butterflies.

if i agreed, would i be sinking deeper into the sand pit?

really burnt out by PW
too many written reports, too much editing, and script, is a total horror.

scripts been written a couple of times, but its still not finalised yet
and if the scripts not finalised, neither is the powerpoint.

every night im up to like 2 am scrutinising the stupid scripts or reading thru other presentation stuff, tryin to keep it close to the original intent which is almost impossible

ive almost given up trying.

-shrugs. i dislike Proj Work to the core. working by myself would be much faster and definitely more efficient.

Q&A sounds like something i can convincingly crap out with, but i fear for the rest and therefore tonight i shall spend the whole night waiting for my members' Q&A qn attempts to arrive in my email box so i can read them, try piece them together and edit. my guess is that ill be up to 2am again, working on it.

hope i dont fall asleep on the desk this time. hah.

but of course before doing Q&A, ill have to finalise the scripts and ppt. sucha drag. but i dont dare let someone else do it, after a couple of mistakes in the final WR. reyes called me a project perfectionist nut. ughh. im kinda particularly worried about reisha's script.

its not that i dont want others to help. but with some parts of the project, its easier AND faster to do (like editing) by yourself or with by most one more friend. dont help that im no people pleaser, i cant deal with people too well, especially in the case of graded projects.

since have another (originally unplanned) OP tmw, ill have to chiong scripts, ppt as well as Q&A. have yet to start on Chinese revision at all. i know, what revision? i dont wanna get a D la okay.

church duties been pretty hectic too. this week will be particularly busy with main worship practice as well.

i dunno. it feels quite suffocating.
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cant wait for weekends. that means BYE to chinese, BYE to slides, BYE to powerpoint (as it should be all done by then). and HELLO to church. and after monday, BYE to proj work as well.

I&R? its an individual approach :P

sometimes i wonder what i want, well aside from God.
and wonder when certain things will finally be set in place.

how easy it would be if everything is recorded a book for reference along with instructions too!

i dunno how the heck to study for chinese :(

joce and joy coming my house tmw :D
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