Sunday, April 30, 2006
my pi (latest draft) is completed and it
looks good.
looking good is only because of the way i arranged it tho, and pierre gave a lot of constructive comments which made sense but i didnt know how to implement them. he makes more sense than mr chiang anyway, whos really too general and ambiguious. anyway my word count including headings and all is already 715 words. i know! its WAY over the word limit. i have to cut, but i dunno how to. will cutting it reduce the quality of the damn thing? im really tired of pi.
tmw's official church opening, pretty exciting! hope the performance goes well, esp the electric guitar solo by a friend whos sorta new at it.
and maybe, ill go out to do my hw after that. im not too productive at home. imagine a room with aircon, hifi player, and a nice bed. :S i always go to sleep, or end up reading my books or be at the keyboard trying to figure out some new rhythms or smthg.
im dreading mr chiang's comments about my PI as well as friday's chinese test. i know myself well, my chinese is definitely not up at that standard.. and best part, i dont really want to do anything about it. theres probly an econs test coming up, and on the chapters wongmeilin taught. needless to say, i know nuts!
supposed to go shopping sometime this weekend, but it hasnt happened yet. weekends are a bad source of a lot food and no exercise. i think im going to mess up my NAPFA.
yes, im sounding extremely pessimistic.
and no im not depressed.
just weary of the repetition of things unwanted.
Saturday, April 29, 2006
of the late my moods have been running wild.
i hate it; it sort of seems like a temporary depression would descend - where everything seems to be in shades of grey, and somehow with or without a problem, there's this need to find the light.
but find light from what?-
weekends are unbearably tiring. worse than school i'd say. energy sucking vampires. pssh. i'd be happy when the may 1st performance is over. its utterly draining. best part, i cant go to sleep or rest because practice is plop flat in the middle of the day and i'd have to live with the headaches and whathaveyous till the end of the long day. but im pleased and very grateful to say that the practice today was satisfying. few mistakes, none of them very visible except to us, who have practiced the same songs countless of times over the past few months, and who know the songs backwards up.
i stil have yet to complete PI anyway. pw is the bane of my very existence. chinese possibly is too.
just as im looking forward to the school week, it means that i'd have completed the PI, the insane amount of econs, chinese as well as maths tutorials, which i have to say i slept thru the entire Inequalities lectures. :X i feel horribly incompetent.
Friday, April 28, 2006
one last incident i forgot to write earlier about-
the recess incident. what a friend did made me a little stunned, but hey it
was deserved. darren agreed as well.. sighs. im turning into this one big mean bastard, but i cant help it. there are some things that i cannot tolerate, and this is one of them. i shall not do things against my own code of ethics tho, that, i strictly abide by.
im exhausted. spent.
PI is half complete still. but i dont care already, im off to bed soon enough. sometimes i wonder what the whole point of all these 'things' i have to do, have to achieve. does it make me happier person? is getting my As so crucial? is not my happiness more important? what is truely real?
maybe what i thought was there, wasnt what it seemed to be. maybe i'd have to settle for less. stupid me jumped into a conclusion again, it was something that i needed to keep myself afloat i guess.
its a bad case of deja vu.
i dont want to fall into the same pit as i did when i was thirteen. i never really managed to crawl back up.
old wounds, refreshed scars.new pain;my head hurts. bursting.
today was maths test.
i felt really lousy after it. it was an easy paper, so damn standard. yet i managed to screw it up. i panicked, lost my calm and cool.
COLOSSIUM (mj's sports day)
was an track/relay official mainly stood around in the sun and melted. we were pretty bored, snapped a few photos. and
LIJU embarrassed me. we were fooling about on the shaky bench and he toppled over the long bench onto one side and i fell backwards on my butt on the grass with my legs hanging over the damn bench! i really hope no one saw lah, so malu! hahaa, lychee im gonna get you during training. anyway the most interesting part of today was the cheerleading. the better two was Triton and Atlas; the Triton girls had seriously nice and long legs lah and most of them moved with the grace of a dancer. Atlas had this one fantastic move; this small girl dropped from the high position she was backwards, and rebounded back to her feet on her friends shoulder. amazing i tell you.
ha, and
pierre was a cheerleader for miranda. i was laughing my butt off! okay lah, hes a decent cheerleader i have to say, but hes so skinny he looked as though the wind was going to blow him away!
me and weeyang zhaoed school before prize giving, no point squeezing with the rest of the student population on the bus. all the gates were locked or guarded, so we went to the hidden back gate behind the tennis courts and climbed over it :O hahahaha!! i havent climbed gates in ages i tell you! it was such a refreshing thing to do, as mad as it seems. btw climbing gates doesnt mean im a gangster nor do i smoke or do drugs okay? singaporeans are just so fixed in their mindsets!
tonight i shall do my PI :)
Thursday, April 27, 2006
MJ beat TP 3-2but it was quite a sluggish match, nothing like monday's rj match standard.
ive completed my lit poetry assignment, slightly more than a thousand words heh. :) as for PI, well i guess it will have to wait till after tmw's math test. i will have to make a fantastic redraft lah, else ill have to do a NEW one, and its due in slightly more than a week. -sighs
i went to support mj's match, so i didnt have time to revise for the maths test. tonight i hope my mind will be all perky and cheerleader rahrah like and not fall asleep on me. i seriously need to cement down at least ONE subject for gawd's sake. im flunking econs already, and probly history too. my essay test was a mess. i wrote like a page and a half, whilst mel and everyone else wrote at least 3 to 4 sides! they were trying to be optimistic, that my handwriting was little, but.. well. still immensely worried! lit is so getting so my nerves lah! the structured way of doing lit in jc is so restricting. hopefully things will get better as they give us our reading lists and we can start on prose like Jane Austen's
Pride and Prejudice. the very reason as to why i picked lit.
today the class was so peaceful for once. i loved it :) i really did!
and i seriously think we should start a study group. so instead of going out just about everyday, we'd be completing our homework and make time for revision which is so not happening now.
mj rocks really.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
amin's phrase 'asswipe' is insufficient a term for lowdown creeps like you.
-
okay, enough of that. i am utmostly grateful to my brilliant cousin Anna, who taught me the entire 2 lit poems! :D she's now a lit teacher in some school, 8 years older than me, and 8 times more brilliant! heh, i told her the url of the poems on msn, and she interpreted the poems straight out for me. and they sound really good. im serious. better than ms. rehana ^^ tomorrow i shall complete my half done essay in school, after school. who wants to accompany me in the library? :)
really,
thank God for cousins. :D
its a heavy weight off my shoulders.
erratic.thats what i have to say if i saw my behaviour today without any inkling of what i was thinking, what happened.
anyhow im feeling pretty lousy. a third rejected PI. PW tutor gave new and
different requirements now, its really confusing me. PW is a pain in the neck. so's lit assignment anyway. its due tmw, supposed to be all typed out and laid out and nice, and i havent started yet. was reminded about it when i entered IVLE to print out notes. a nice reminder message from ms rehana of how she "DISLIKES DETEST and ADHORS" people who 'surprise' her with no assignment. blah. i have no inkling on the damn poems anyway.
PI is a real pain in the ass
a pain in the butt
a pain in the head as well.
momentum in the local arts scene is
ridiculously hard to do. benefits of this momentum? hohum its practically
nonexistent.
ha, and i did catch on on more than i seemed to get. i just didnt want to go into it. no mood i guess. today is a pretty lousy day in all.
on a final note, i wished i stayed nearer school.
really.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
fuck (it) to hell.feel like fucking trampling on him.
first time ive been so vulgar on my blog, but its effing well deserved. i dont curse without a reason. this time, it deserves x10000 of that.
i am obviously so-not-happy.
mess with my friends, die with me.for my friend i wont drag it up, but just. watch. it.if any thing irreplaceable is broken, ill find you.
ive put on a lot of weight this week.
shit.all that training down the drain. hahahaha, i still love the game anyway :)
econs lecture today was pretty weird. trust ivy quek to get people to act out a story about MC and MR. it would be much better tho, if
weeyang was 'goofy the bear'. heh :D and about studies, im pretty worried, stressed yet at the same time im not doing as much work as i should be doing. sure, i get most of my hw done. but its pretty slipshod. some people think im a mugger tho. damn shocking, heh. and as for the tests, im feeling pretty lousy bout them since i hardly do any sort of revision and go taking them with foolish hopes that my mediocre brain can carry me thru.
lits due thurs
PI is dead
maths' friday.
i dont like this at all.ha, and plus, the downsides of looking dao. i cant help it, can i? buy me comestic surgery then!
Monday, April 24, 2006
MJ vs. RJ soccer match was the main highlight of today.
mj was up
5-1, and it was raining heavily. just 3 minutes before the game ended, there was lightning so the referee called the game to a pause. anyway the final situation is that MJ has to replay RJ again,
from scratch. from 0-0. mixed feeling about it i guess. wont spell it out too clearly lah. but it was a seriously exciting game, a lot of good plays on the side of RJ as well except it often fell short at the goal. yes, today meridian played a really decent standard i have to say :) much improved form lah. rj has a second chance at the game, so i guess they'd better grasp their chance while they still can. ;)
okay i admit i reacted rather stupidly. my first instinct was to duck and hide; despite my rational and logical reasoning.
more than soccer was on my mind during the game; that was for sure.
and when i got home, i suddenly just wanted to cry. it just didnt make any sense at all
mixed swirled
water, and blue skied
bright coloured portrait
a streak of grey
pained, ice pink
facade on a black wall
poor plaster covering
naught to see at all
-random.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
okay im so pressed for time
pressed for work
pressed for sleep.
i better not start bingeing (or have i already?)
okay i admit, im stressed for real for one of the rare occasions in my life.
i wonder if whats gonna come in my life will reflect that movie
Walk the Line. jonny cash and june carter. if it is, what can i say besides OH MY GOD? most of you wont get this, but thats the whole point :)
tmw's soccer match:
mj vs rjhow exciting :X
Saturday, April 22, 2006
yesterday:
me and jas went to buy a 'freshie's' birthday present at Plaza Sing after hanging around in the school library yakking with her classmate mak; anyhow pierre was super duper late lah! how can you make two girls wait??! we took ages to finally choose, or rather we gave up and just bought the most convenient thing with mak's help who came by later after his hair cut. :S
today:
i realised how much work i have this upcoming week. on top of the usual whole piles of work, ive got History test which i just remembered, Lit Visual Icons, Lit graded Essay and finally Maths test. i am oh-so-screwed for my grades! the thought of completing all these sickens me.
okay, time for breakfast :D
nothing makes me more happy than good food.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
after school today, for the first time ever, i felt like a loser. all along ive been surrounded with my friends in school; i do know quite a few people. but today no one seemed to have cca at 5, thus after weeyang zhaoed for soccer and bel left for home at 3+, i felt really weird. but heh, heng i found sheena mei and kenichi. bumped into other friends as well, so yay :)
went badminton early of course. i started off a bit upset cos the ankle hurt like mad and i couldnt run nor get most shots. but it improved quite a bit as time past :D anw 3 school team players came along and we all played on one court ^^ it was quite hilarious lah. they probly think i had a screw loose and that we are so slack tho!
MJ beat TJ 4-2!! :Dnext week no trg squad training :( probly gonna book tampines sport hall or smthg
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
this is pretty hilarious - you shd see zukai's entry on wed 19 april
Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people. At the end of it all, choose 5 people to do this. Ready? Start~!
1. xiwen
2. darren
3. kakwai
4. melanie
5. kenichi
6. sheena
7. weeyang
8. kelvin
9. pierre
10. jonathan
(yes, you sarcastic twat)11. hannah
12. sally
13. natasha
14. XP
15. jl
16. shawn
17. leon
18. kenneth tan
19. nicole
(dont go australia :/)20. joy
Now for the fun part...
How did you meet #14? parents were church friends and he still hadnt had teeth yet. sadly, hes now taller than i will ever be :(
What would you do if you never met #1? laugh. i wont know them, will i? :S
What would you do if #20 and #9 dated? HAHAHA OMG. i would faint and die. im serious, this is a match made in hell. she will whack him for being lame.
Did you ever like #19? YES, WE'RE MARRIED SINCE FOREVER :D
Would #6 and #17 make a good couple? omg, sheena and leon? NO! sheena's laughter did kill poor leon. he'll be haunted in his sleep :o sheena-itis.
Describe #3. hes blur. damn blur and goes big time for SK. ;)
Do you think #8 is attractive? HAHA, xiaodidi
Tell me something about #7 hes warped, very warped! you've been warned.
Do you know any of #12's family? no? just only seen her mother's shop assistant :X
What's #8's favourites? girls girls girls.
What would you do if #18 confesses that he/she likes you? OMG it will be incest and i'd be a paedophil. hes 13 for Gawd's sake and hes like a little fly on my shoulder ^^
What language does #15 speak? only arabian and belly dancing
Who is #9 going out with? he goes out with shenghui, and raymond :o
How old is #16 now? 18 going 80. old nag!
When was the last time you spoke to #13. 3 days ago in church!
Who is #2's favourite singer/band? no idea, but his music songlist in his ipod is BRILLIANT
Would you ever date #4? NO to xiaomeimeis
Would you ever date #7 HAHAHAHAHA why date dage?
Is #15 single? you never know
What is #10's last name? gay. :D dont kill me heh.
Would you ever be in a serious relationship with #11? YES HANNAH! SUPPLY ME WITH FOOD AND I WILL :)
What school does #3 go to? mjc and my class too!
Where does #6 live? pasir ris lets go raid her house!
What's your favourite thing about #5? damn act-cool :DD
Have you seen #1 naked? this is soo wrong. :X
END
OK, the five people I want to see doing this?
weeyang
sally
nicole
xiaowen
christine
i voted for these people today
9 jasmine10 shiqi20 kelvin22 ariffin43 xiweni wanted to vote for more people since i know quite a few candidates and many were good but lack of votes, so i gave it to those who i felt needed it or those i really wanted to make it to the SC :S does that make sense? haha!
i went to school today in slippers with that ugly ole bandage. i swear i dislike the uniform's top. its BIG, ugly and weirdly proportioned! :( tmw i shall go for training! :)
on a final note, i skipped chi, econs lecture as well as PW today. went to sickbay. i slept a lot :) anyway i hope to get thru the stupid lit poem analysis essay tmw during the lit lecture lah, i dunno how to write essays in that dictated and conformed manner! i always just anyhow whack, but i still do okay.. sighs-
the week seems to go by so fast when monday and tuesdays are over! :D
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
bestie Nicole is gonna go to Australia. she got like 10 points for Os but shes stuck in louya nyjc thats why! :((( erugh. no more crazy ole nic :(
i seriously have to mug.
tests coming up.
i love mj :)
i slept 4 hours more than the night before (at 4am), and im in worse shape than yesterday. i had my normal 5-6 hours and im already dying in school. i was sleeping thru history tutorial..
talking about yesterdays training tho, it was pretty hilarious. we were fooling around as usual and whenever i stepped off the court i tripped over the damn net poles :X got a blueblack toe now, but thank God for coloured nail polish.
im worried bout my PW group now.. sighs.
i am so ready to graduate out of college;
its the fatigue that never goes away.
Monday, April 17, 2006
did i mention i failed econs terribly?
it was
disgusting. how could i have been so stupid?
hmrm some people fared worse tho. imagine writing two pages, and getting a zero thats a major ouch for you. the highest in class is 6/20
which still sucks anyway.
congrats to MJ's fine soccer team which trashed nyjc 6-0 and will beat TJ later this week 10-0 or even more :o
academics wise, im not coping at all. im a freaking big mess.
not that the rest arent as well, but that isnt really the point, is it?
i should learn how to mug without falling asleep
everything is getting blurry i
cant see straight no more;
it isnt clear, the entity of haze
barricades what sight
vision by day, vision by night
clouds and sky black thunder
and finally the rain cries.
-release.
i wonder how lit students will interpret this ; mj's lit makes you jump into crazy conjectures when it could all be just a simple reason behind it all. or maybe its just literature. full of whims and fancy. if only the dead be alive; we'd have a definite answer and people will not be able to blow a gasket on a leak of water. on a final note, yes, wilfred owens is gay. thats the most interesting fact about him and his poems..
Sunday, April 16, 2006
some of my old friends have certainly moved on to new pastures. quite happy for this one particular friend. shes always been the most levelheaded person ive known, and she prayed about it, so yeah :)
i miss my tkgs friends; we're all so damn busy we hardly get the chance to ever talk..
-
the new church building is really nice. it looks small from the inside. but you should see the maze of classrooms upstairs; my slack jaw said it all. im looking forward to the new premises :) i feverishly pray that the may1st performance will be smooth going
-
despite everything, i still love A201. and i shall go for badminton training tmw! im seriously heck about the ankle already lah. i cannot tahan being an invalid.
on a final note, i bought this lovely white-orange-grey adidas jacket. its not expensive, quite a decent buy i have to say!
im clearheaded, and i know what to do. dont worry :)lemonbarley addiction;
Saturday, April 15, 2006
what people do to deflect reality.
what people do to hope the worst has passed.
what people assume to make it seem just a little better.
life isnt kind, nor fair i guess.
you just gotta find the best way out of a situation;
but
no one said
even the best way had no pain.
just some random thoughts i suppose;
forever ambiguious.
-
sidetracking yet again;
i wish i hadnt been so rash. but maybe we all needed to do a little growing up first.
the future holds many bright thoughts.
that quote:
if you love someone, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were yours to begin with.in this case, 'they' is meant to be singular. i dont practice polygamy.
Friday, April 14, 2006
today was pretty wonderful. it went along the lines of sleeping eating and getting online. that makes me
one happy girl :) did i mention i had jap for dinner and that my mom wasnt home the
entire day??
on a sidenote
things seem to be pretty sad. sort of like stuck in a situation where you arent happy, but stopping it wont make anyone happy either.
i wonder how it would be if things hadnt changed since then.
but nvm,
no point talking about that.
-ponders again.
yesterday was an
interesting day. there was that rj vs nyjc soccer match. not too sure how it went, cos i only watched for a couple minutes before going off with my friends. think rj won tho.
i sprained my ankle again.
this time not during training tho, it was after. quite upset about it lah. unbelievable okay, i prefer to sprain my ankle while taking a shot instead of spraining my ankle by sliping off a bench which was wet and slippery and when it was dark.
holding some thoughts inside my head.
something to ponder about.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
went out with sabrina sally darren kakwai to bugis. it was quite a hilarious affair, especially in the neoprint machine. we havent taken in ages! anyway put in
one xiaochabor
another xiaochabor
one blur twat
one amused twit
= a pretty confusing and hilarious time in the jammed little space. kakwai looked so stunned and blur in all the photos lah! we could see darrens braces ^^ i looked as stupefied as usual..
i have a ton of overdued work stacking up in my files. especially chinese.
oh how i dread days that have GP PW
and Chinese. BLAH
looking forward to tomorrow. it will be an interesting day! :)
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
much better mood now.
on a lighter note, im getting incredibly blur. i thought today had badminton trg and wore my badm shoes and brought my racket along. halfway thru the car ride my dad mentioned that i just had training yesterday :X thank God he mentioned okay, would be so stupid to drag a racket around the entire day for no good reason, even despite the perks of my lovely racket; its damn pretty man. :)
i have strangely cut myself accidentally again during maths lecture. the usual accident of a paper cut :S this is like the 3rd or 4th time the past few days..
i cant wait for wednesdays and the rest of the week to come. much shorter days, and lighter subjects ^^
on a final note;
i do treasure all my friends; a hell lot i would say.. even though sometimes i feel like strangling them :D jc is pretty weird, a few things i heard today was contrary to what i had previously assumed.
i swear, sometimes i hate/dislike/detest Amin. ohmyGod. i just want to wring him damn neck. how tactless can he get?
anyway the worst is over for today. chinese is over. i dread chinese. its incredibly dry and overwhelming. just about another four hours of the school day to go, and id be heading home. yes i shall skip history extra lecture.
PI is in fragments. PW is the worst thing the JC curriculum has ever created.
seems like im on a whine-high lately.
things should get better from only here. once you've hit the lowest point, the only place else to go is up right?
drown and die;white waters rushingthe trepidationyet a blur. mindlessthoughts.
Monday, April 10, 2006
im running on emptyi just cant cope. cant cope cant cope.
badminton training blew a good one on me. mr foo says, in a couple of months we are to challenge main team. if we all dont perform well, we are ALL gonna get kicked to recre. even if theres one superb player, everyone still gets kicked. sighs- anyway im not good at all, i have to really start training properly. :S i really dont want recre. but then again, im not that keen on main team. i wanna stay in trg squad forever and ever. if i had known about this stupid challenge thing id have run for council, or gone for another CCA. BLAH. i do enjoy badminton.. guess its time to buck up; but at the same time im really exhausted
im not coping with my work.
with church too.
school works in pieces, especially chinese. im waay over my head with long school days, loads of bloody essays, upcoming tests (i am so not prepared), trainings and the nasty fact i live quite a distance away from school.
weekends are no better. im clogged with music classes, main band and youth band practices and church sessions. i have practically no time at all. its quite a suffocation..
and i
really dont know what to do.
BLAH.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
i really dont like it when any of my friends are unhappy with me.
i hate it.
so damn distracted now i cant even do my PI
or my history essay.
hell.
todays jamming session was pretty messed up. the amps were screwed, and the e guitarist didnt know the part. and the actual day bassist wasnt there. really messy practice. i hope it just gets better from here.
anyway i wonder why im taking Arts stream after all. i find essays such a nuisance! im decent at my sciences and maths after all. sighs- anyhow history essays are probably the worst things ever, its a dry subject and horribly factual. i wouldnt go near it for anything in the world if not for my interest in it thanks to a really fantastic teacher from nanyang girls' GEP. she really told me a lot of interesting history stuff. sadly my sec school teachers and jc teachers are not up to that mark.
things to complete today:
History Essay
PI
(yuck)thank God i already completed the 2 Econs essay outlines..
i wont say too much anymore, ill keep it for my history essay (sighs)
Saturday, April 08, 2006
pretty tiring day. finally i graduate out of the vocal and keyboard module, pretty proud of myself. especially since i think i quite nailed my vocal presentation :D
anyway thats the end of my vocal and keyboard classes as well as main worship. ive pulled out, i have seriously no time at all to even complete my homework. -sighs. was looking at an econs essay qn earlier was rather frustrated. i dont like not knowing.
nat made this fantastic concoction, cream cheese with baking chocolate and loveletters. OMG its better than cheesecake. but then again i dont like it that much! im not too keen on cheese. was telling her it'd be
brilliant if she just took the top cheese layer up. ate like 3/4s of it, it was that good. then she kindly reminded me about the calories. haha! i never diet lah, but its good to watch what you eat, especially if you eat as often as i do :X i dont want to not fit into my new clothes.
im hooked on that chinese drama on saturdays at 7pm and the channel U one at 9pm. yeah that means 4 hours of teevee, which i sadly cant watch :S gotta buy the VCD soon. i am damn broke!
waay too much taxi.
Friday, April 07, 2006
school ended pretty early today;
but hanged around study area with the A201 people, weeyang, kelvin and some other councillorwannabe friends of xiwen. yeah i sort of redid the entire graphing maths tutorial, pretty proud of myself. if i dont buck up soon im gonna flunk maths which i never have. weeyang helped me a bit with my PW :)
zhaoed with kelvin and another councilorwannabe jianxin i think to whitesands to find xiwen who was at popular with another friend. i got prodded, poked and pinched God knows how many times today courtesy of kelvin lah. so indecisive can? make up your mind bout badminton guitar AND council :X lol, anyway we ate at Cavana's and went to TM just to take neoprints. xiwen was suddenly inspired to do so and i was cool with it. i looked retarded in just about every photo cos the camera kept snapping waay too fast to position myself properly.
loads of work this weekend, loads of essays yucks.
final thing, i ran 2km today, pretty cool. considering my stamina sucks to hell.
looking forward to a more exciting and vibrant life in mj. man,
i love MJ. i love CASTOR. despite the fact i was shifted to Alhena thus now in Phobos.
hahaha unusually loyal arent i? :S
down to work now, gotta finalise the youth teeshirt designs.
damn headache.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
today was a rather wild day; some issue that has been long past resurfaced and i panicked to say the least. i
really lost it.
training; wel i wasnt exactly in the right mood so i didnt run for the shuttle too much. the new guy is like most of the badminton players; a bit screw loose. LOL. badminton training has always been pretty amusing. i just want MORE girls in badminton; girls are pretty rare in recre and im the ONLY one in trg squad. means i have to play with guys, which obviously mean im heading for more than i can take. badminton shoes are quite weird anyway. my new ones are red and white and yonex. :)
oh and MJ beat AJ in soccer! :DD so happy okay, it was initially 2-0 then they equalised it to 2-2, i just about fainted. then 3-2! wooooo. hope MJ can win title again this year :D
finally HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIYANAH :) fantastic seventeen. i wanna be old too. :)
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
i lost my last post.
hell.
i got a letter from the school offering me a Cambridge REACH trip, only for the 'top tiered students in the school'. it made me snigger. im no fantastic student. anw its 5k and im not gonna waste my time.
i passed GP essay but barely. a D i think. i fared better than all those that has gotten their essays back, but im not too pleased still..
for once, im at a loss for words to say.
more later.
oh final word, NO TRACK PRACTICE FOR BADMINTON TRG THURS! yippee :)
Monday, April 03, 2006
really tired. badminton footworks wipe me out! only today am i told im wearing the wrong footwear to training. no wonder i keep twisting my ankle and God knows what else. =.= i have to go buy shoes soon yet again; tis only my 4th pair this year. my mom refuses to pay a cent for it. shes a bit of a money pincher. you can call it thrify i guess. i didnt play too well during trg today, i screwed up in quite a few shots. the hall lights were suddenly blinding.
people wise its down to stephen lychee me and this new guy. sooo small. i miss becca, jac, yingxieng, adeline, kaisheng and jiankai. we were a rather kooky and crazy bunch. training was always fun; i adored training. well, at least lychee didnt ditch me as well! at least for yingxieng, ade and kaisheng i still see them in school, the other three are in other schools sadly :( i hope more new people come into the training squad; it'd be (hopefully) as fun as before. not that training isnt tough of course. but its definitely not as tough as the main squads. anyway my stamina stinks.
anyhow tmw is Econs test and im muddling my way thru the web. makes me wonder what on earth am i thinking of since im not
that confident of securing a decent grade for the test. haha. the work load is finally coming in and im feeling quite tight in my schedule already! i'd better reschedule my whole program.
i know i can be an evil bastard at times, not so nice. long days, ive been exhausted pulled through. straining and cracking at the seams. life is different try to understand but still, forgive me where ive let you down in any way.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
the point jams home yet again, why i was so foolish, even if it was in the past to believe that people from different backgrounds can easily remain together. it was a whole different wavelength, a different sync. there was appreciation, but no connection. love
doesnt surpass all things. im practical and level headed enough to know that. i dont really believe in the fairytale like proclaimation, that with love you can overcome everything else. anyway its way over and things have let to passed which i am utterly grateful for.
that aside, econs test is coming up and im in a rather sorry shape. i have not really started on revision proper yet and its already sunday night. kakwai and mel smsed me with qns on econs this morning which further reminded me how far back i am. i mean, yeah i know everything in vagueness, but the point is that i dont think MJ will let you pass with a vague answer will they? tmw ive got classes till 5, cca at 5.15. by the time i get home past 8. i have only about half an hour or so to revise before i crash to bed to make sure i have enough sleep to not fall asleep during the test itself.
i must promise myself to sit down and focus later on. i have a nasty habit of fidgeting or walking around and never turning back to the books. i may be sitting there for 2 hours, but i study for a mere half hr. its that bad. i shall not let that happen today! have to do that be damned history ws thing; its a waste of time for me since i did my essay outline the right way i dont need the guideline! yeah but since most people didnt, now i have to do it too. i wonder what they were taught for the first three months.
im looking forward to june holidays. econs melbourne trip as well as church camp and maybe a trip to hongkong as well :D id probly have to lug my books overseas tho.
what did you mean?
Saturday, April 01, 2006
im seriously burnt out;
im not sure how much longer i can tahan all the rubbish programmes that stock my days up to no damn end. its bloody tiring, despite the fact that ive been sleeping much more than i ever did in secondary school. but then again, this is JC isnt it? the schedule's not something im used to, thats for sure.
on a second note, i have to cut down all my activities. say byebye to my lovely keyboard and vocal classes thats for sure. a farewell to some church activities as well. sighs- i like doing so many things; i hate taking them out. but no choice is there? no when im so blown dry and left to dust that i have no energy to do anything at all.
todays dinner at Golden Peony at conrad hotel was in short, boring. the dinner wasnt that great, but the place looked nice. the best part was the desert i think. it was damn good. yumm. i love vanilla ice cream :) i didnt even touch the abalone (i think) lah. the sharkfins was put in coconut, never seen that before! the usual nicieties were exchanged and photos were taken. as usual, comparisons were made. apparently christine's and my hair look relatively similar cos we have a bit of curls. mainly talked quite a bit with chris. i dislike long rectangular tables; you cant talk to anyone aside from the person next to you.
i have to settle the youth teeshirt design soon. damn it, why cant they just remember to bring their designs and quickly choose one? it can make my life so much easier. im not that free to entertain
every call of objections. anyway some of them are redundant.
what am i off to do now again?
sleep. even if you werent a rocket scientist you'd have figured that out too. yes, im extremely tired and i dont feel like ever wanting to wake up again.
(no this does not mean im suicidal)
