Thursday, December 29, 2005
nightwind outing was kinda fun :P
all younger than me plax i feel such old! LOL lizzy has already kindly critiqued that phrase as poor english o.o LOL
we biked today and got drenched in rain. anyway, a couple of us were chionging like hell, i was one of them so my thigh muscles are really sore now. they worsened the cramps from HOURS of crossed legged sitting in MJC
we took some photos today as usual the guys reacted to photos like a bucket of water over their heads! so none of them ^^ hahaha! we saw some of QYs pri school people. i wont say friends lah. to me was kinda odd cos the way they blow hot and cold on friends is not something i will be able to understand nor decipher. my friends remain my friends thats it. i couldnt but help take second looks at them today. i believe i will remember them. if need be ;)
yah anyway im quite fed up with the whole samuel situation it annoys me to no end. firstly most of it is bullshit. secondly im painted bad guy. thirdly he likes to act innocent -.- finally people like to make all sorts of comments. i do not have the time nor patience to bother to argue with samuel that much. and i do not need people to tell me to love my brother. it doesnt help, if u think it does. whats going on at home, none of u know, so i suggest not to make any comments unless u really have solid proof. as for defending myself, its simple. if i dont who will? ;) as for samuel and i we are both hardly at home. and thats that. i may be bored but i have things to do even if they are repetitive and meaningless. then again more or less everything is meaning less. im looking forward to studying lol! shocking? yah thats cos i didnt study enough at O lvls :/
i was so tired to day i slept from 6 till past 8 :)
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
mm i went to MJ today
people that i think i will hang out with will be those from class. 4/6
sonia mel huijun :)
its little but its enough
im doin arts. i like most subjects and actually wanted to take chem but after hearing that they are doing Pride and Prejudice and Othello for lit. IM TAKING LIT :D
want to anyway :)
today was all talks and my legs were cramping way bad from sitting hours on the floor
hahaha!
i cant wait for school to start tho MJ wasnt my first choice.
thats cos HOLIDAYS ARE MEANINGLESS
everyday go out ><
it gets boring after a while
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
i died in Libera today
shocking!
my first death
i will NEVER EVER use mana fluids as replacement for UHs again.
bleh i wonder who made that stupid suggestion :/
i lost k arm c shield and 2 bps of hmm bp of manafluid loots and money
thank Heavens for a nice friend who lent me eq.
anyway i dropped my level skills and all.
back to training and then ill need to lootbag like mad.
i guess i dont take it hard cos its just a game to me
i dont give a shit about levels or skills or what not.
i play cos of friends
and i love doing things for my friends even if it makes me flat broke
sometime i wonder why im so stupid :D
Monday, December 26, 2005
Christmas has officially ended
past twelve.
an assortment of gifts and cards which i really do appreciate
but i guess i just miss that one or two wishes.
especially that
one :/
its kinda stupid i guess but when your a sixteen year old girl
u have stupid hopes
and dreams that will never see the light of the world.
im more practical and logical than most
but that doesnt make a person invulnerable either
mm enough of that.
i excited about JC
i crave new experiences.
i like being thrown into a situation sometimes, having to figure where to go
of course im not talking about food. in that area, im picky and a conventional eater.
man can be so weird
we really choose to suffer sometimes
it can be unconscious, but if u look carefully ure actually giving urself a bout of trouble
why be bullheaded and cause yourself more pain?
like i said; odd
but thats humans for you
us.
the holidays have become so draggy
you await for some interesting and exciting to come by
something for you to grasp with both hands and
stay enthralled with it,
at least for longer than a little while.
u plan the days u go out
u spend time wondering why are you stuck at home
and then u finally conclude;
yes, you are bored
and just as u even whine about the stressful education system
and the crazy pace of life in Singapore,
you know that you cannot live with out it for long either.
its been already enscripted into your brain.
you cant change it even if you want to
the Singapore Government should be so proud of themselves
:P
Sunday, December 25, 2005
BLESSED CHRISTMAS EHH?
church was really fun
and im glad that denise and mervyn joined us ^^
the AV really sucked though. i was kinda annoyed with it. i shant say pissed cos im in a jolly mood today :)
thanks for the wishes and presents all :P
i miss some of my overseas friends tho :/
Thursday, December 22, 2005
mm ive sorta becomed a recluse in some ways. hidden up at the back of class, behind a book, at a corner or something like that. i dont talk much, i dont smile much; i just kinda stick to myself and a few selected friends. not that the rest are awful or anything, thats untrue. its probably just me..
aside from school, i have also cut out many old friends. not on purpose but people drift when u dont make any effort to keep in contact. primary school friends i have not spoken to in ages. the "town" people are more or less as busy as they usually are. old mates like reyes, shawn and that gang are split up among different countries. stuff like that.
no i do not mean that im completely alone by myself.
just that i am no where near my social days as in its peak in sec 2. real social animal then.
nowadays even at a BS overseas trip, i would be in the room curled up with a book or music. i dont like talking much sometimes, yet sometimes i do too much of it. its a kind of contradiction.
im finding my balance i guess. my pace and my sort of life.
sometimes i wonder why am i sitting alone in my room doing nothing much, craving company
yet sometimes i crave solitude in the midst of a crowd..
there's this big QUESTION mark on my personality file
define Michelle:
introvert vs extrovert
calm vs explosive
practical vs dreamer
it never clocks up
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
double post today, it would seem that im immensely bored.
well i am.
and i even retired off tibia >< can u believe that? LOL
im itching for something to do,,
i went out with nicky yesterday, it was good fun. she and nat got the same habits
like SMACKING PEOPLES BUTT
i bought a really nice paperchase pencilcase ;)
overseas trip wasnt too great.
its was kinda boring.. when u hang out a buncha kids ranging from primary school to sec 2 or 3, u sure do feel old. its just a different wavelength. here am i entering JC soon, well its kinda hard to talk to them. actually they dont seem to talk, they just keep on crapping and talking lame. sometimes is alright fun, but sometime it borderlines annoying and stupid. so i spent more time in the room reading, listening to music or sleeping. i wish the youth had older kids, or more matured kids.
eitherways camp was interesting in that
No. 1: girl and boy
No. 2: a different girl and the other boy
No. 3: boy and boy
LOL. im not saying who lah..
anyway sometimes i get really exaperated with them, cos most of them only know hw to play and have fun. asking them to do a little work will seem to kill them..
im looking forward to JC; people of the same age with similar thinking thank God
Friday, December 16, 2005
later on going to Adventure Resort
-grins. loadsaloadsa fun!
well i got to MJ. not too happy with that, but is ok, i'll deal with it. see how about SA. i really don want MJ no offence.
i believe ill do better for O lvls
i just found out that KC moderated a lot -.-
old news but not too happy ones
\\bye
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
today was Youth Musical practice. well ken nat nic xp xw and marj were over an hour late. they got lost ><>< and later on, sam being a brat, took a bus home without me -.- i took a taxi back instead.
im kinda tired after such a long day. pple dont understand that running something seemingly small like a short musical can be bloody taxing; that is until they do it themselves. its so darn hard to get everyones cooperation, so hard to get people to follow instructions, so hard to get people to stop fooling around, so hard to get people to put in effort. sometimes i feel like im the one whos forcing them into this which is absolutely bullshit cos i never wanted a musical in the first place. plus i dont happen to be
that free, despite the end of O levels.
it seems like you never get any appreciation for the hard work you've shoved in. its just taken for granted that you're there and u'd do the work without question. and when you bother and ask everyone to help, you cant help but sense that people arent so willing and blame you for causing them to "oblige" into wadever the situation was. and that honestly sucks =( oh well.. i guess if they all cooperate enough i'll be super duper happy. and be more enthu. `nodds head. that will simplify a lot a lot of things and make it much easier for me. x 10
haha but i still do adore my youth kids to bits. they are really nice people and crazy and fun. just a bit touchy on commiting to work issues. but playing music together is just fantastic :) overall today was still great and i enjoyed it :D
dad's gone for a week for business trip and mom's on seminar till 9.30pm for 3 days. wad a wonderful time :)
<33 all
have a great upcoming Christmas!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
long time no post!
anyway tibia is just fine im getting me skills and levels fast enough
and for church
the youth camp was great!
we went swimming in the sea and it was cool. everyone got dunked a couple of times
except for the few who dint want to go in. but mainly everyone i knew better got in. fun eh?
and we walked around the beach like drown rats dripping water everywhere
musical practice was alright. jus tthat some people were making noise which was a little annoying. but hell its an improvement already.
i realise that i love my friends to bits <33
honest, every one of them.
church mates
class mates
outside sch mates
every one.
anw this tues will be so fun! musical practice in the morning then
we're watching aeon flux. including xw and xp. amazing right? i nearly fainted when they said they were going lol! fun oh fun.
i must bring a camera and photograph this momentous day! :D
im kinda in euphoria :)
