hmmm. i think i should really really cut the "bad" words. -shrugs dont ask why.. anyway went to malaysia yesterday with the school people. it was.. alright i suppose. lol. the oil factory was really really bad. it stank the whole way thru. lizzy looked like she was going to puke. poor liz. but after that all was okay. joy was like a surrogate mummy. hahaha the poor girl had to look after my passport and this and that for me. im the sort who'd wander off by myself and find myself missing. haha and while we were at the last gateway of the dutch [or was it the portugese?], the rest of the group went downhill and we didnt notice anything. we freaked out and didnt dare call mr ang cos he'd chew us out for the rest of the day. yeah but we saw marsha's bright orange shirt from the top of the hill and just went down. very heng lor. and whatever we bought, we bought a third set. haha, guess why?! -grins anw, we only got back at 11 plus at night though we were supposed to be back at nine. the favourtie part of the whole trip was probably the gateway part where we finally found smthg to buy and of course the bus.. lol.

super tired i tell you. i hadnt had much sleep for the past four, five days. my black eyerings has gotten worse. and i am waay waay behind time for my work. school hw and some others. and not to mention, ive got like the preparation for the myanmar trip. have to cut out 120 pieces of board from the thick plastic sheet. tried cutting it with this blue litttle paper cutter. it nearly broke when i pressed it against the board. dunno how im going to cut it. nad ive to figure out my testimony. and maybe, the christmas msg. and also got to check if all the materials ive bought. this time, i was really really in a rush. not very efficient im afraid. im going so broke i tell you. ive got a ton of presents to buy. for wanyun, liz, jocelyn and joy esp. liz and joce's is kinda settled on. that leaves joy and wanyun. ive got to scratch out my brain for that. =s and i dont get pocket money during hols eithr.and im really really bad at saving too. lol. shall figure out smthg anw. eiyee. i really really dont want to complete the school hw. its so frustrating. i have a last section of e maths left, four sections of chem but i'll porbably copy off for that, and i think four parts of a maths. a maths must do la, i mean if i was to be so unlucky to get the maths HOD for a maths next year, then confirm must show that ive done my work. shes jolly fierce looking. im the awful sort who'd never do my work unless your the fierce or the strict sort. like mrs geh. i did most of her work this year. as for ms diane or rather mrs ang now, i barely did a sheet or two. -smiles guiltily. oh wells. i really want to clean off all these work. plus the nasty little sec one to four chinese chiyus. im like justing copying each word one time. and just today laoshi tingxie-d me on chapters 24 onwards and it got bad to worse. i "learnt" them three weeks ago. can barely rmb a single word now..

oh yes, that reminds me, ive got to find jocelyn's baptism present. darnn. more shopping to do. and all i want to do is sleep. and sleep. and on hindsight, read more chiense wuxia books too! =)

later!


my brother is stinking obsessed with computers and gameboys. geezus. excuses and more excuses. of cos theres nothing wrong with playing. but too much is too much. and if you try to threathen or pressure me in order to play the damn computer, im very sorry. but nothing much scares me. it only makes me angrier. f it. damn brother keeps threathening to off the power cord while im playing bcos he wants to use the comp. b***** ass. piissoff man. and when i want to play he says to lock the computer up or threathened to "tell mummy that you woke up at 12pm". oh BIG DEAL. i am so stinking scared. as if your the only one who knows how to play this game. and im not so stupid to let you have a griphold on my life. unlike you. if i open my mouth, the worse has gotten even worse. mygod. if i kill him one day im not surprised. i hardly lose my cool. only two people can really make my lose my temper. one, my mother. two, my brother. freak. ive got to cool down. shoot la. see la, the moment i lose my temper the whole load of vulgarities come flying out. shoot.

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whliew. im super annoyed. i was trying to find some of my old entries and its all jumbled up because i kept moving blog at one time.

something at brinkster.com
remnant001.diaryland.com
remnant001.blogspot.com
remnant001.diary-x.com
livejournal.com/users/theantiyou_

and currently:
clarify-.blogspot.com

and a couple of secret blogs hidden away somewhere.
i think theres one more blog.. but i cant rmb wheree!! aii. im turning into a sentimental freak.

shite.


hahaha.. went to the library last night. got six english books. and collected my shediaoyingxiongzhuan that i reserved a couple days earlier! gosh. expected one book, but it turned out to be four in total. the books are super long and super cheam. over 1000 pages +++. i think im over my head. but i still want to know the story.. lol.

and ive been replying msges like mad the whole of yest night. weird you know. whenver i checked the phone, it'd always appear THREE msgs, no less no more. -shrugs-

holidays are freakishly boring. ive got nothing to do. homework dont count y'know? and i dont see the point of holidays. MOE should cut the holidays and spread out out work over the extra weeks.

im turning into a whiny b****. blearghh. and im losing the stinking basic ability to put my thoughts into words. fgt it. dont even bother reading anymore.


third time blogging today.

anyway feeling much much much better. kinda cooled down and straightened things out. i dunno but lately in this strange mood. moody, almost. and i lose my train of thought so easily and tend to sputter strange questions.

-shrugs

oh weell. but anyway, i'd better get back to practicing the guitar and the piano. my skills are getting ridiculously lousy.

i miss school. not the essence of it, but my friends.
i miss being busy.
i miss being caught up and doing things.

hahaha anyway reyes told me that shes in INDIA insted of LONDON. that blur toot bought the wrong airplane tickets and landed up in INDIA. hahhaa nearly died of laughter.. im amazed. waht things some people can do. ive got to go now. take dinner.

later!


awful migraine. really stinks. been having it for the last four days?

-groans

second time im blogging today. and ive been reading my old blogs.. at diary-x, at LJ and the sorts. its kinda sad y'know.

reyes swears in self-inflicted torment. but i dunno. thinking is good for the mind. and if you can take it. i think im finally really over-over. the ferst time its been like that. such a waste you know..

but nothing for next year. its time to concentrate. yeah right. as if it really helps or anything.
but like i said before in the prev entry, i want MORE. more


a bundle of thoughts.

the rushing ard and doing so many things. trying so hard to be acccomplished at everything. i mean, whats this all about? what for? why?

there seems to be no meaning. whats the point of getting straight As? to boost your ego? or to get yourself some sort of sastifaction? does it even really matter? and whats the point of living it up? it only lasts for a moment. and the next its gone and your just by yourself, alone.

-pauses

it seems that there isnt really anything in this pitiful life.
no meaning.
no nothing.
all that ive done, is for what the world expects me to do.

for myself i have not done much.

except God. without him, theres nothing?

i dont feel anything. blankness. devoid.
just methodical. today and the next; the same routine, day by day.. even if i succeed, i dont get anything but momentarily small sliver of sastifaction. and thats it.

i want more. more.
theres gotta be more than this.




today. woke up kind of late. at ten. then went to have lunch with mom, sam and aunt at someset. met jocelyn and joy at 1.30pm ard tehre too. before joy came, kinda walked ard heeren with jocelyn. i hate orchard btw. bbumped into may and jane. yakked a bit. then when wanyun, serene, kiran and joy arrived, we took neoprints. i look inmeasurably -stupid-. all thanks to the braces. i hope they go off soon.. anyway after that left orchard with jocelyn and joy for suntec cos it was raining and jocelyn didnt want to get wet. lol. we got a cab. you wont want to see three drowned rats freezing their asses off in suntec wldnt you? anw it was kinda like comfortable serenity, which was good. except for the certain weirdness from jocelyn. that awful girl had joy and i gritting our teeth. she tried on the same shirts in size 2 and size 3 at least 6 times. each. i think. she took so long to decide to buy it after she decided what size.. geezus. but nvm, joy and jocelyn got their shirts. and though i tried on a skirt and a shirt and a couple of othr things. didnt buy anything in the end. picky la. plus even if i bought it, in the end i might not even wear?

aiiyeees. i hate people touching me. im a super touch me not. well to most people except maybe the closer friends. i bristle or freak out whenever most people come within a certain proximity. so you can guess what happens when someone pokes me, prods me, or anything like that. i hate it. that specific reference refers to my mom in particular. i get really worked up when she even lays a finger. i just hate it. i dunno why. its just like that.

thsi weekends ms dianes wedding and my ggrandfather's bday. crap. i.e. the more formal schnick again. uncomfortable la. im best off in teeshirts and skirts or shorts. but nvm, the wedding is in a CHURCH. so not so formal? hmm.. anyway, whos going? let me know..

later all you..

[silent.lostinownworld]






omgawd. i do not believe this. someone just sed i have similar looks to sun yanzi. ohgawd. is that an insult or a compliment?

amaaaazing. freakishly amazing. im stunned. what some people can say. aiyah. nvm la. and ive finally completed the huanzhugege2 vcds. watch until i headache. i spluttered out all sorts of queer phrases from huanzhugege and yitian during tuition. poor laoshi. she was stunned.

anyway currently uploading some of my phone photos to the comp. im changing that friendster picture. can die i tell you. all sorts of comments.. -sigh-

theres nothing much to say. been lately caught up in a strange dream of the past. the future. and those stupid books ive been reading and watching.

later.


im a scroll-ey rubbish maker.

whats that; dont ask me. aiiiyyeeee. holidays are irritatingly boring. and i hardly go out. and also, im too lazy to move my ass out of the house. anw i went to samuels band concert yesterday. was super amused by the people there. all sorts and there were quite a few weird sorts. the band... was okay la. not bad, but not that fantastic. but alright la. and that pair of pink heels were killing me. i nearly tripped over them on the stupid stairs. good thing i had a grip on the stair railings. and they arent even very high..

ive hardly done much work nowadays. feeling guilty now. but nvm after i finish the current vcds im watching now, i'll go back to work.. i think.

and my phone is going nuts man. its been ringing nonstop for the whole day and last night. i think over 20 calls. but all private numbers. cant see the exact number. and when i pick up, no one answers. super duper weird. -shrugs-

and let me warn you. quit the discrept presurrizing with prices. i dont give two hecks. dont push it.

i want school to start. i want school to start. my brain is boiling with nothing to do.


weird. i just took a walk ard katong to get bread for my parents and buy shampoo conditioner face wash and all that.

on the way back saw this group of four indians or malays. dunno if im paranoid or what. but got this amazingly bad vibe from them. and one of them was holding a wooden stick. was walking behind them. and they kept making funny noises. like meowing and strange grunts. and then they kept turning back to look. of cos i kept a straight face la as though i didnt notice anything. and i think i had this super dao and a bit, maybe, hostile look. not purposely la. its kinda of a reflex. anyway people tell me i look dao even when im being normal and all. soo, maybe no surprise eh. but anyway i know katong and all its back roads like the palm of my hand, so i exited quickly by a back road to get back home.

maybe im just paranoid. but i dont think so. its nine o clock at night after all. and katongs no safe place at night. day time still okay, but at night, all the nightclubs ard and dunnowhatelse. better be safe then sorry.

today i watched a whole pile of huanzhugege discs. and im telling ya, my chinese is improving fast. thanks to the stack of chinese books ive been reading lately. im going to borrow that... shediaoyingxiongzhuan. a lot of people say very nicee. chinese books aint that bad after all. but i only like the wuxia ones. lol.

and i hope smthg happens with my studying. theres smthg wrong with my studying i tell you. my studying attitude my methods etc. big time wrong. ive never felt so stupid before. and i really hope my results dont fluctuate again next year. meaning stay at least above average always. but so far whatever a maths hols hw ive done and chinese and physics and whateverelse is easy. but dunno how long the stuff i know lasts la. i think i grasp concepts fast enough. but i tend to forget them. i think its cos the moment lesson ends i never ever touch that chapter or work again for the whole year. whatever la. i guess got to do fantastic well for my o lvls. else i will die i tell you. im a paranoid pressurized freako.

so whats new?

anw tomorows sams band concert. and dress is "smart casual". i kinda frightened sam by saying that i'd appear in shorts and teeshirt and my flipflops. lol. but i wont la. i'd malu him but not myself. =P anw i cant believe it. how can reyes go to london and not tell me till today? right after i met her, my dad whisked her off to London on extremely short notice. =s

i miss school. just not the working part. and definitely NOT mdm khoo. that reminds me theres that history trip to malacca on this months 29th. aiyyeeee. super duper boring. and malacca is super hot. bad luck. =x oh yes the myanmar mission trip is definitely on. from the 4 december i think. christmas is coming soon. you know what, i can wait for school to open. but i just wished i wldnt be in sec FOUR. -sighs-

oh yes. mike called me earlier. hahhaa silly fellow! =) -grins-

anyway, back later.
[emptynothing]


hmm. this morning dad grilled me on the topic of light. and the silly ray diagrams. we'll see how long it lasts. but i think if i take the o lvl paper now on those topics ive already learnt i'd get an A1. but i'll probably fgt most of them. i hope not la. yeah. joshua came over to play with sam. then went to XWs and XPs house for the myanmar mission trip briefing. well. the briefing sure isnt brief. from 2 to 6pm. nearly died. half way thru, during the break, i kinda sat outside the house by my self. i think its strange. cos i like company. but at the same time i like having time to myself. in some way or the other im kinda of a loner. kinda. but not really either. strange. but nvm. after the whole briefing thing; played table tennis with Sam, Joshua, XW, Nicole, Kenneth, Priscilla, and dunnowhoelse. and man. that stupid XW plays a mean piece of piano i tell you. its good. and hes a guy too. hahaha im prejudiced eh? lol. i just go ard calling people stupid sometimes. dunno whats with me either. insanely tired. not now. the whole year round. tired. but hey, nthg can be done, so too bad. and i really peifu people like him who can play the drums, piano, and can also do sports and studies quite alright. its like really all rounder. and not bad too. but i wont tell him of cos. lol. bleh. me? i used to do piano. kind of wasted to think of it now. if i continued, by now i'd already completed grade eight. and guitar. i havent practiced since the course. badminton? ive hardly touched my racket annd i used to be mad about it trging many hours every day. swimming? that was a long time ago. i was always good at something at sometime. so it stinks right now that im good at none. and my grades. aiiiiieeeyyyee. big headache. always fluctuating. anw my big big hopes for the future.
1. score 6A1s for O lvls
2. play piano like i used to and even better
3. guitar too
4. badminton trg back on
and loads and loads more things i want to do. like lead worship in main service. so far only youth. i really hope God does great things during the mission trip. i need to be cleaned up emotionally and spiritually. its as though im tired all the time. i sleep at night, of cos i do. but i still got those eyebags the whole year round.

and and and!! i think i make a stinking mess of every relationship with any friend. i tell you, sometimes i cant belief how much of an idiot i am.

i actually miss my classmates. stinking amazing. no more "cold blooded" as laine used to say huh? basically its like this. im messed up confused and in good need of a psychiarist and loads of pills to control my emotional state. eiiiyee. i want to go back to primary school days. good old primary school days. but i love my current class now. hoho. conflicting issues again.

better go. there are loads of things more i want to think about. i think i think too much.

whatever. full of rubbish.


back now. did a chap of physics just. waves. easy stuff surprisingly. and lately ive been into chinese books. chinese wuxia books. the wuxia parts not surprising cos ive been into martial arts and that flying and fighting thing for some time with those serials but books werent my stuff. hahaha. but amazingly i could even understand the four books in yitiantulongji. my eyes are completely tired and sore from the tiny little words on the thousand over pages of the books. but anw it was good. and i finally got a bag. right.

parents are totally enthu about the studying schedule back again. eeeyiiis. -sighs- but anw ive quite some stuff on so i cant do that much either. pity those poor sec fours doing their o levels now. must be a major headache. tomrows going to xp and xw hse for the myanmar briefing. the mission trip. aiyah. both sorta enthu sorta reluctant. yeah. and i want to do taht guitar course. i mean, yeah, i know some i suppose, but the lazy bum i am, ive never really practice since the short course. lol. not so much on the holiday in malaysia. just thank GOd no big events. im looking for an eventless holiday. i.e no blowups no fighting and stuff. this time only once. and not at me, but my brother. soo not too bad i suppose.
right.

got to go. going on to read on the chinese books.

laters -


right. im back from msia. didnt go kuantan in th end. change ofplans, headed to malcca instead without nat and her family. went a lot of shopping. but im picky. so only ended up with a handful of things. but i did get two really nice pairs of shoes. =)

the hotel was LOUSY. and expensive for its quality.

whatever.
getting chased out already. so fast. back to the books. have to. no choice eh. later.


hoho. i got back all my friendster testimonials. quite happy now. plus i got the huanshugege 2 vcds from yanleng. was reading the three books in huanzhugege1 yesterday. had a stomachache from laughing. the books' hilarious. amazing, cos i cant believe i even managed to understand the book, not to mention to understand the chengyus. lol. my chinese is improving man.

and today. i was taking the mrt when this angmoh lady asked to take a picture of my shirt. i was so stunned. i mean, public leh. i dont like drawing attention to myself. haha its the shirt with the cat which says at the front "to make your dreams come true..." , and at the back "is to wake up". lol.

watched from 2.30 till 6.50pm worth of the vcds. dad didnt know. hehheh. they have smthg against watching too much of tv. and their "too much" is more than an hour a day. lol. so anyway im going to msia tomrow with family and nat's family. lol. dont miss me! hahaha... think itd be good. im not into holidays that makes me take airplanes and run around. this one, i'd finally get to sit back and relax and sleep and eat and shop. woooheyys! right. gotta go do a bit of physics so that i can watch the Champion later on. =) till monday!


hmrph. ive never been too nice a person. nice enough but can easily turn nasty. like my brother who always pushes my buttons. this time he thought he could finally pull one over me.

stupid foolish little boy.

please la. and just a little manoveuvre of mine made it backfire right back at him. wooheys. just bank on that stupid computer or the gameboy and stuff like dat and he crumbles. no fun at all.

-sighs-

im acting super weird. and im still craving for chocolates and brownies. you'd make my day if you go t me some. hmm you know what. im fat. i really am. stupid.too much chocs during the exams. and i have yet to do anything abt it. blah.



this week no more extended studies!! lol. woke up at like 11.45am today... im such a pig. but was really tired. went to watch the 9smthg Princess Diaries show at Plaza Sing yest y'know. it wasnt as good as the ferst one i thinkk. because i expected comdy, but this time not so much of it. but the guy Nicholas smthg is droolworthy. too bad have yet to really see a Chinese guy liddat eh? -laughs- so reached home at like 12pm. and did the Quad Functions section of A Maths hw after. slept at like 1 smthg after reading my book.

i feel odd if i dont do anything during a day at all. but of course a little bit will ease off the guilt. =) and this thurdays im going to Kuantan with Natasha and her family and my family. well. this year no flying out. every year we usually fly out, but im glad we're not. im sick of sight seeing and globe trotting. its literally no big deal. you see one you've seen them all. im hardly impressed by much.

later ons Chinese tuition. haha my compo ive written is like 200 words. laoshi's gonna be hopping mad. oh weels.

now that holidays have started i realised that im busier than ever. everyweek at least once or twice i wont be at home for the whole day. some appt this and that. and not counting the ones going out with friends. probably if you asked me, i'd be too lazy. i like lazing ard the hse now. i used to think that going out was the best thing. but no more. i cant be bothered.

its like im consumed with bochapness for every and anything.

anyway i suddenly crave for brownies. even though the horrible new braces. i tell you. i look STUPID in them. gah. alrights enough. later all you..


aiiyeee. im aching in places i didnt even know i had muslces. wierd la. after that badminton, at night, i steppped on that treadmill for the very first time and ran... 1.4km. thats a short distance la. but not after badminton and runnning ard the whole day.. exhuastion.

so.. jocelyn left for indo today. i didnt go seee her off. so early in the morning you know? lol. im so happy leandra is out. shes an alright signare i suppose but she is so fake-y. eeeiiyer. dont like larh.

and i watched the CHampion today. hahaha. the usual sequence. anyway toadys SATURDAY. means no more exteneded studies. but i suddenly realised that my schedule is super packed. dies la.

rights. go to go now. theres lots of a maths and e maths and dunnowhatelse work left. yup. down with it.

later.


yest went to class party thing after all. it moved to lizzys house and i stayed till slightly past 9.40pm. Singapore Idol was lousy and laughable. slyvester and his " i SWEEEAAARREE" lol. lameness. i dotn support any of them. none of them have a shot of becoming American Idol if they ever entered. -nodds-

and then the braces started tightening. eating is a total pain now. amazing considering how i love food. watched the Champion yesterday. he Yilin was the usual female dog. no surprise there. i ate a stupid fish ball today and it hurted like mad. fgt it, just eating rice hurts. -snorts- shd have never bothered with braces cos like my teeth arent that bad. just a little minor problem. i bet after this i wouldnt be able to smile properly again. how sad.

later on playing badminton with jocelyn. then go her house. then bathe. and at five i go back home for tuition. i have barely started on tuition hw. a lot alot left. ais. so dead. right. now the last period of the day.

later; all you..
[aiyeeeeeeeee!!!]


i have to officially declare that im a dao freak. a friend from outside school is talking to me on msn and i cant be bothered to give more than one liners. sorry. tired i suppose.

today: extended studies. and had the malacca trip briefing. come to think of it i need to find out whats my blood type; ive totally confused it up. and to have a photocopy of my passport. im not even a bit enthu to go. please. its MALACCA. as if ive never been there. and they say only can wear jeans or long shorts which is redundant if you ask me. shorts are supposed to be short. stupid. so hot you know. and that part of the itinerary makes me snigger; at nine am i think we get to go the the palm oil factory or smthg and then stated clearly in the piece of the paper was "TAKE PICTURE WITH PALM TREE". oh wow. you see, ive never seen a palm tree before y' know? -snorts in laughter again- lol its weird la.

and den. i went to the dentist to put on braces. i look like a retarded. stupid la. they only did the upper teeth. the lower in a month or twos time i think. and the bands are bright red. temporarily stunned while the dentist drilled my teeth and pointed at any colour and i got red. welll. at least i didnt get bright green which would horribly match my school u. 0__o class thing/party at east coast on at five. nows.. five to five. i dont think im going. its raining like mad. and thunderstorms all over the place. sorry yeah? wanted to go, but too bad now i suppose. hmm wonder where they were going to eat the food. on the wet sand? lol. im so lame today. i shall watch the CHampion again tonight. mainly to wait for the cow, no thats too nice, the female dog He Yilin get her dues. right.

stuff to do. laterr.
[you'said//]


in school right now at... 7.30am. -yawns- so sleepy. and im as sick as a dog. sniffing and sneezing and freezing my ass off. i mean im naturally cold blooded or thick skinned; i can wear one layer of clothes at 15 degs in China and dont find it cold, so this is... weird. -sniffsniff-

joy is superduper pampered kaes. she got a pile of cards with us. meaning me and jocelyn. she better be thankful. -growls meanacingly-

oh yawn. early morning and certain people are already yakking away. yakking CRAP away. oh gosh. noise to my ears.

right. lessons started. laterrs.


-dieess laughing- theres this couple in a car outside my house. lol. making out. so damned obvious! -laughs- dead funny lor. amused.

today. was so irked off by this person during a maths. irritating know-it-all. wait. i take it back. she isnt a knowitall. she just acts like one. and her concepts were wrong. so much for the very good results eh? that doesnt make you smart dear. who said getting good grades meant that you grasp maths fast? rubbish. and thats not the point. the thing is, do you have to talk in that awful manner and tone? when people asks you stuff do you have to say shit like "pleasee la. soooo obvious lor.!" and when you get stuff wrong you still admantly insist your correct by changing your tune to cover it up. wahlao. my nerves were on an all time high after the first period. yicks. and you seem to think that the rest of us are imbeciles or what? talking in that degradatory tone. all high and mighty. or acting silly and stupid. harharhar. you are sooo funny. watch it before that ego takes a smashing. you are just so messed up when it comes to grades. geezus. you nearly ruined that fantastic a maths period. a maths is easy la. once you got the concept. aiyar dont talk about it already la. next year just make sure to sit nowhere near that person..

todays history was kinda amusing la. and i rmbed the stuff i read! -beams- and that lame rasputin song. hoho. serenes gonna perform!! jocelyn is now sitting in such office counting jewellry. and even if she slacks of she get 5 bucks and hour. good life. lol. i dont like e maths lesson because ms diane nags. so much. nice or not, she nags like my grandma. physics was a blur again. no idea what i did. what i rmb is poking pins into a board and squinting at them like mad. -shrugs- the holiday period in my school is like normal school day. you see the sec fours in, for the Os, the sec threes in for extended study, some juniors and all that.

you know what. if i dont get 6 point for o lvls, im going to be damned upset. dunno why im pressuring myself out of a sudden. i guess maybe to prove my parents wrong. not that they think im stupid. but that they keep naggain and yakking that ive got lousy studying attitude, technique, lazy etc. infuriates me me to no end.. i would kindly prefer people to leave me alone. -shrugs-

tomorws to the dentist for braces on and class dunnnowaht party at 5. shall go.. i think. see first. not enthusiastic la. cant expect me to be right. i mean after i get my teeth yanked apart and tightened, i have to go to a party and watch people eat.

im grouchy, im in a mean mood. i think its better if you left me alone for now.
[slicee.]



you know what? i guess its kinda sad y'know. when youve known the person for a decade or more. and then at this age you just arent that close anymore. but i cant say im not surprised. no i cant. after all, we're completely two different people with very different lives. and sad to say, im not very bothered by it either. i think thats one of my major flaws. i brush this sorta thing too fast. way too fast. its like what comes, comes and what goes, goes. -shrugs-

anw had school today. a maths was fun. its easy stuff. and chemistry was just doing more qns. they were relatively easy. hmmm. and about the history teacher issue; geez. i just dont know what to say. seriously la. i bet you its all gotta do with misunderstanding and toosensitive feelings. dunno. but being a student, i want the BEST teacher. we are the only core hist class afterall. lol. but i think certain groups of the class have certain opinions. actually i dont really care. as long as i get that A1. im ambitious yeah. but thats the way it is. did DC after school today. wriggled out of it after nearly two hours in the art room. mygosh. its as if they havent cleaned the place in... what TEN years? and they have paintings dated all the way in 1980. you got to be kidding right? im not even sure what i got booked for. this year ive been relatively guai in school. unlike last year. -smirks- funny now come to think of it. i chalked up... 28 hours of DC i think. amazing. i wonder for what. but nvm. ive got to buck up on physics this hols thats for sure. my physics knowledge now will get me a d7 at best. lol. and im still sleeping in tan ying's class. today's experiment was a mess. didnt get what he was saying. too busy and distracted.. by other things.

-snorts- shall study physics, a little, afterwards so that i can watch the Champion after. He Yilin in the show is a right, er, female dog. you geddit? right. gotta run, do stuff. buhbyes[rightat_ya]


wooheys. todays the start of the hols. well for today theres no school. the rest of the week, there is school. shumucks shucks. ah wells. my parents have drawn up this studying schedule for me. eeeyers. and i was supposed to go study and play badminton with jocelyn today. but, haha called it off. some conflicting schedules and a bit of laziness on my part. the moment i hit home; i hate leaving. i prefer leaving to go out straight after school. yup. so badmintons on friday. got chinese tuition today. i like lessons you know. no not ms diane sort of lessons because they give me a choice to slack off and sleep. mrs gehs type of lessons make me do my work; and well. i just dont like studying when im at home. no motivation la. -sighs- thats my biggest problem. no motivation. and an incredibly short span of concentration. and that little fact i cant sit down for more than half hour. x__x how sad. someone hep me la. even better, someone make sure i dont fall asleep in any of the classes coming year! i cant afford that anymore. lol. i hope i dont get ms diane for e maths next year. yeah shes nice but stil.. new and inexperience la. and for the good of my grades, i want another teacher. and i want mdm hassan for core history and SS!! she and mrs geh are one of the best teachers ive encountered so far la. you know what they shd cut down; big time; on english lessons. as if we did anything much productive this year. complete waste of time. today im supposed to study history and physics. lets see how make i'll do. i need motivation. someone help me.

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